I am lame
Well I fucked up again, and he left me. I don't know why I believe him when he says that he wont let me run away or that he wont leave me. I feel stupid over this. All I did was want to give him a bed and that blew up in my face. Yeah it hurt when he yelled at me over it. I know I can be annoyingly insistent over things like that but I was only trying to help. Every time I try to help I always end up being the problem. Maybe if I would have kept my mouth shut I would still have my boyfriend, but what kind of boyfriend breaks up with you over a comment and a bed. It just seems so dumb. I don't know why we struggle against each other so much. It really does seem like we are always in a constant tug o war with each other over the same thing. Sometimes I think that if we spent as much time trying to work together as we do working against one another we would be unstoppable. I mean what can I say to fix it. I wish I could seriously turn back time and just turn my phone off and then the problem would have just been pushed down. I don't know what it is about this that makes me what to tell him every feeling I have in my head. I don't seriously mean them all just want to get them out. I mean if you cant talk to your boyfriend or husband then who can you tell those things too. Maybe I should have stopped and considered his feelings, I guess I can be deemed the hypocrite in this situation.