My readings and thoughts
As I sit here, reading the entries of my mate goldenpup I am thinking how much he has been through the past few years. Drugs and bad relationships with very few positive moments in his life and here I am, brought up by two loving parents, my mom and dad. They have brought me up to be good and never once tried any drugs, though once in a while drinking, but not drinking till I get sick. But like him and everyone else, I am sure, there will be a moment in my life that will be the hardest of them all. While it has taken my mate this long to finally get himself someone like me and change his life around, it will take, not me, but my parents a long time for them to reliase who I really am. You see, it will be the time when I come out to my parents. While for some it was a nice easy street. Lucky for me I was able to test the waters, and found out they are very rocky. Since I have been with my mate, I have found out the sitution is very fragle but I do know that it will be a long road for my mom. I know she will be hit hard with this, since she has told me it would devisate her if it was the truth. While I dunno if she is telling me that cause she has a "feeling" it is true but trying to change me back. I do know one thing, I have a feeling my mom does know but won't believe it. The only thing I do ask of her is to at least accept me for who I am, and to let her know who I am. With my mate, I have found happyness, I feel complete and believe me when I tell you that I have tested this many times before.
While I am still Bisexual, My only interest in girls is really more on a sexual level now. I don't think I could hold such a relationship as I do now with a girl, at least such a meaningfull one. So, am I slowly becoming completely gay?...Maybe....maybe not. I guess that is up for me to say rather than someone else.
I don't blame my dad or my mom for who I am because, while they did their best to raise me the way they want, I am the one who made myself who I am. The final day that I will be with my parents will be the day I will tell them with my mouth, or with a letter. I hate hiding myself from my parents, mainly my mom, and feeding her lies to satify her cravings that she raised a straight boy.
Your one of the lucky ones pup AKA sean AKA goldenpup AKA my mate and puppy
While your mom thinks it is a choice, that is her opinion. In my opinion, There is no real answer to why people become straight,gay,bisexual,trans but if your that way then it has to be accepting and not looked down on apond.
Before, I used to look down those who was like that. "Oh, look at that fag....ewwwww" But you know what, It was because I didn't know any better. Now that I have a open-mind, I get along with people better now.
If my mom thinks I choose to love another man, then thats what she thinks. Just as long as she accepts me for who I am, whether I choose it, or how I was raised, or any reason someone thinks of to answer how someone becomes a homo.
That is all....for now
Amaris
While I am still Bisexual, My only interest in girls is really more on a sexual level now. I don't think I could hold such a relationship as I do now with a girl, at least such a meaningfull one. So, am I slowly becoming completely gay?...Maybe....maybe not. I guess that is up for me to say rather than someone else.
I don't blame my dad or my mom for who I am because, while they did their best to raise me the way they want, I am the one who made myself who I am. The final day that I will be with my parents will be the day I will tell them with my mouth, or with a letter. I hate hiding myself from my parents, mainly my mom, and feeding her lies to satify her cravings that she raised a straight boy.
Your one of the lucky ones pup AKA sean AKA goldenpup AKA my mate and puppy
While your mom thinks it is a choice, that is her opinion. In my opinion, There is no real answer to why people become straight,gay,bisexual,trans but if your that way then it has to be accepting and not looked down on apond.
Before, I used to look down those who was like that. "Oh, look at that fag....ewwwww" But you know what, It was because I didn't know any better. Now that I have a open-mind, I get along with people better now.
If my mom thinks I choose to love another man, then thats what she thinks. Just as long as she accepts me for who I am, whether I choose it, or how I was raised, or any reason someone thinks of to answer how someone becomes a homo.
That is all....for now
Amaris