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so terry got a myspace so this is the only place that i can really blog and feel okay about it with out getting bitch about, ya know? So being sick sucks, i'm on 4 meds now, blah! but i do feel a lot better, which is always a plus. Everything is going okay here. We heard officaly that terry WILL be going overseas, i was really excited 1st cause we wernt getting along that wll and i figured it would be a good seperation between us, but on new years eve and new years day a lot of stuff happened between me and terry and now we are gettting along great, Wierd how things work. Well we have been doing really good, we got into on little spat the other day, but i cant even remember what it was about. Our house has stayed clean, laundry up to par, everything is going ok. But i'm afrain that once we get comfortable and in our rutine something is oign to happen, always does. I try not to get too comfortable in my life cuase it seems once ur in a comfort zone, you alway get pushed out. So my resolutions for the new years where not to miss naymore school cuase i'm almost finished, to loose 40 lbs b4 i graduate, to grow my hair out, there was one more but i cant remember, lol. I joined weight watchers agian because its alot easier to do and to loose weight for me if i have that support group behind me and when i have to wiegh myself i front of ppl everyt week, AND when your having to pay $14 a week you kinda kick your butt into gear. Today was Lexie's (carlee's baby) 1st bday party. It was a lot of cun. She hired this lady that dressed up as cinderella for the kinds, it was just a all around great time. I can't beleiev how much she has grown in such a small time, well this year just flew by. I love her to death and i'm glad that carlee and i worked our beef out and she's changed and so have i and i think that helped us to addapt to each other, which is always a plus. I look at lexie and just think how i know i'm going to be a wonderful mom and how terry is going to be a wonderful dad when the time comes for us having a child of our own. It was so funny cause carlee's mom and grandma where like, so ahtena when are you having one, cause terry and i are the only ones outta all of our couple frineds that dont have kids. Terry and i have come to the conclusion as a couple that we are NO where near ready for kids, financial, stablility, or emotional ready to bring another life in to this earth. Not to sound selfish, but i want to start my life 1st. I dont want to have to put my life on the back burner becaseu we got pregnant. Iwant to start my carerr and make a name for my slef 1st, and terry is okay with this. So our goals as a couple are to be financial stable and to ow our own house b4 we even think about having kids....wow how the fuck did i get from not blogging on myspace to when i'm having kids?!?! lol well thanks for listening to whoever is!