Feb 14, 2005 12:50
Gah!!! I couldn't even talk straight! I was studdering for miles!!! Hell, my heart is still racing!!! I almost feel like crying! It's like uh, like, well I don't know! I feel like such an idiot!!!
I've been planning this whole speech and rehearsing it, but when the time came... I choked. I got out pretty much one sentence then bolted! I'm such a pansy...
I've never liked a girl this much... She's just so amazing. And I've been saying that a lot but it's soo true! Everything about her! AHHH! I F'd it all up!!! Trying to act all Joe Cool when I was freaking shaking as nervous as I was... Damn... She'll probably think I'm freak or flake! I'm sorry! I even got her those little balloons (which she hated)... I'm such a loser... I just want to roll over and die!