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I did nothing but cry all day yesterday. I took down all photos of him and saved them. I cried over physical photos I have of him. it feels like my heart is ripped in two. I know he is keeping everything to himself. he broke up with me to spare the pain of being in a relationship. fucking bipolar. it ruins everything. i can't do this anymore. i'm trying so hard to keep it all together, but just every day, the depression is getting worse and i'm more and more miserable. i miss him so much. but I can't have him. I'm unwell and have to focus on that. i just wish this were easier. it may never get easier. i love him so much. this was real. i may never have that again.