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[amaranthine13]

so it is really nice out and i am quite glad. i realized that i love the warm weather a lot! and it's days like these that make me happy. it's days like these that make me want to be a better person. i think that anything is possible and i wonder why i didnt just do it before because it all seems so simple. i do better for a day or two, until the sun turns into wind and rain, and somehow, what had seem so simple before is not so easy. things like school and finding a job (work if i had a job) and homework get in the way and i have to start over. i can't wait until summer starts and high school is over ... forever. but just as i begin to be excited, i get sad. i don't want to go away. i don't want to grow up. i don't want to leave my family and my friends behind because things change and i like them the way they are. i things usually work out for the best but if things change, there is always that chance that they don't and i don't want to risk it. oh, well. life goes on right?

ps - i think i am ready for my star now ... i am still a little worried but i think it is for the best!