I gave away my weak spot and found my passion in life at the same time
It's my unofficial first name (what it's derived from, which I find intresting because I sometimes sign as or call myself "Ama" short for amaranth flower) as well as my middle name. Sssh, don't tell anyone what it is.
What Kiri-Amma Rabina Means
K is for Kind
I is for Impassioned
R is for Relaxed
I is for Intense
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A is for Alluring
M is for Mysterious
M is for Mellow
A is for Alert
R is for Romantic
A is for Adaptable
B is for Brainy
I is for Irresistible
N is for Natural
A is for Ambitious
What Does Your Name Mean?
You know, I just thought of something: I gave my parents the perfect weapon with which to kill me. If they ever cut off my horse lessons or told me I couldn't be around horses anymore, even if it were "only for a period of time" they would have just struck me dead on the spot. I mean, I just thought about it and I was crying. I can't do that. Never see horses ever again. Never ride horses every again. Never work with them. Never touch them. Never. It makes me wonder what Leslie would feel like if Rapho was taken away, or her writing or robotics/enginering...or Neesha's mobility or if she were forbidden from astronomy...or Gaby's books and writing...or Ashley's theater...or fencing for Sean (I guess). Music and archery would not be enough to sustain me [I feel like a vampire who's trying to describe his need for blood, or a lycanthrope trying to explain its need for physical contact]. I feel wounded. I don't even know if my beloved friends would be enough to sustain me, let alone bring me back if I ever went under. And what the hell, with all the boys I just made friends with today. For me a few years ago, that would be IMPOSSIBLE. I'd just waste away.
SHIT
Please don't ever use my fear of the dark against me, please, ever, even in jest or as a prank. please please please. You all know it and I'd feel like I was stabbed in the back.
What do I do?