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Sorries to all of you for being away! Sorry emelie, maia, kaz, leslie. And this is rele pathetic that my returning post is as such:
"I don't want to do this anymore" as in life. school. parents. If they had told me before that grades were all there was to life i wouldn' have gone and made friends to hang out with. I would have stayed in the womp and killed my mother or had a C-section and forced myself to turn blue ind die.
I don't want to do this anymore.
Why does going to Atlanta with the team matter so much to me? Idk. It just does. My parents have never been to a competition before - so they don't get it.
Remember that time i told u I was seriously considering killing my self? And I almost did. Remember that. Well something's wrong with me cause i'm having those thoughts again. And they've only become worse.
someone help me...I can't even see what I'm typing my eyes are so wattery dumping out tears.
Yes i sound pathetic to all u macho suck ups.
I do'nt want to do this anymore...
"I don't want to do this anymore" as in life. school. parents. If they had told me before that grades were all there was to life i wouldn' have gone and made friends to hang out with. I would have stayed in the womp and killed my mother or had a C-section and forced myself to turn blue ind die.
I don't want to do this anymore.
Why does going to Atlanta with the team matter so much to me? Idk. It just does. My parents have never been to a competition before - so they don't get it.
Remember that time i told u I was seriously considering killing my self? And I almost did. Remember that. Well something's wrong with me cause i'm having those thoughts again. And they've only become worse.
someone help me...I can't even see what I'm typing my eyes are so wattery dumping out tears.
Yes i sound pathetic to all u macho suck ups.
I do'nt want to do this anymore...