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I feel like shit.
All I want to do is curl up and rot away in a fucking hole. I feel like.... just not good. I'm a bad friend. And I know it. I know I suck at being a friend. Thats why I piss everyone off. Cause I'm a fucking idiot. I'm ugly. And disgusting. And gross. AndI dont understand ANY of whats happening. I cant take things right. Not right now atleast. And I dont know why. If someone syas one thing to me, it'll mean something totally differant to me, and it'll pile up on me, until I finally combust and do a whole lotta shit no one wants to know/hear/see/think about. When did I become this insecure with myself?
I knew who I was in grade seven. I knew aslong as I was me, people would like me. Why do I feel like I'm constantly changing myself to please people? Why do I feel like iI'm drowning, and no one will come to my rescue.
Why do I keep hearing whispers behind my back from people? About stupid things too.
Why do I just want to die today?
-em.
All I want to do is curl up and rot away in a fucking hole. I feel like.... just not good. I'm a bad friend. And I know it. I know I suck at being a friend. Thats why I piss everyone off. Cause I'm a fucking idiot. I'm ugly. And disgusting. And gross. AndI dont understand ANY of whats happening. I cant take things right. Not right now atleast. And I dont know why. If someone syas one thing to me, it'll mean something totally differant to me, and it'll pile up on me, until I finally combust and do a whole lotta shit no one wants to know/hear/see/think about. When did I become this insecure with myself?
I knew who I was in grade seven. I knew aslong as I was me, people would like me. Why do I feel like I'm constantly changing myself to please people? Why do I feel like iI'm drowning, and no one will come to my rescue.
Why do I keep hearing whispers behind my back from people? About stupid things too.
Why do I just want to die today?
-em.