I don't know if I should be saying all this...
So I am talking to Nick and Matt. I must be crazy. Two boys. Both I care about a lot. One is the most recent break up where some hungover feelings arise. One my softspot who I always have a great time with.
So I spoke to Nick about Matt. Nick said he wouldn't be pissed if I went for Matt. Which is really really cool on Nick's behalf. Cuz I don't know I really do like Matt. I mean I think that I should get myself back in the scene... and Matt, I don't know... I think about him and get all happy inside... He can cheer me up just by being around...
Today teaching me how to skate, all curling up watching movies... It was like I was laying down with my head on him and our fingers were interlocked, and I wanted to just turn and kiss him, but I think we both had our fears of Nick being upset. Plus he thought I didn't like him. Which I did the whole time. I just didn't want to upset Nick at all. Cuz Nick abd I have grown apart, but become great friends you know?
I feel like I must be getting the best of both worlds. I get to keep Nick as a friend, and I get to date Matt. Which is so awesome! I am so happy.
Beach tomorrow with Matt, Shane, Heidi, and Ashley. Should be cool. Have lots and lots of fun... ahhh I am so happy. I don't know what to do with myself... I am bouncing off the walls... he likes me back, and Nic kis not mad at all...how great is this?
Oh yeah and today, I got stung by a bee, totally hurt myself on fall off the board, and I slamed the board into my ankle fucking it up... grr... my ankle hurts like a bitch...
But yet again, I am so happy.
So I spoke to Nick about Matt. Nick said he wouldn't be pissed if I went for Matt. Which is really really cool on Nick's behalf. Cuz I don't know I really do like Matt. I mean I think that I should get myself back in the scene... and Matt, I don't know... I think about him and get all happy inside... He can cheer me up just by being around...
Today teaching me how to skate, all curling up watching movies... It was like I was laying down with my head on him and our fingers were interlocked, and I wanted to just turn and kiss him, but I think we both had our fears of Nick being upset. Plus he thought I didn't like him. Which I did the whole time. I just didn't want to upset Nick at all. Cuz Nick abd I have grown apart, but become great friends you know?
I feel like I must be getting the best of both worlds. I get to keep Nick as a friend, and I get to date Matt. Which is so awesome! I am so happy.
Beach tomorrow with Matt, Shane, Heidi, and Ashley. Should be cool. Have lots and lots of fun... ahhh I am so happy. I don't know what to do with myself... I am bouncing off the walls... he likes me back, and Nic kis not mad at all...how great is this?
Oh yeah and today, I got stung by a bee, totally hurt myself on fall off the board, and I slamed the board into my ankle fucking it up... grr... my ankle hurts like a bitch...
But yet again, I am so happy.