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Did I ever mention how much I hate being stood up, three times today my plans fell through, twice the people never called back, It drives me nuts. So um yah, if I ever make plans with you and you decide you dont want to do whatever we were going to do, just let me know. Atleast then I dont sit around for hours wondering if we are still going to do something and waisting my time that I could have been doing something else.
And now one of these times wasnt a big deal cause it was more of a give me a call and we will do something tomorro thing, but I called and no responce, one thing we had been planning for a while like weeks, but they slept in, and then were stranded, we still got to hang out but not doing what I wanted to, and I had sat around waiting so I didnt get to do what I wanted to at all.
And then the last one, the one that really pissed me off, we talked at 7:30 online decided after he got out of the shower he would give me a call and we would go out to Grittys for a drink, I havent seen this person sence 1999 when he graduated, so I was looking forward to it, well what time is it now? 11? and still no call, Im fucking pissed, he said he wanted to stop by and see a friend real quick and then go out I should have know we wouldnt end up doing anything, but he could have atleast fucking called.
Maybe his thought prosses was hey its been 6 years whats another day or two, but call and say you cant do something anymore, Dont just not call so I sit around for hours looking like an ass whos friends dont care enough about to keep their plans or even let them know they arent up for it. I'm sorry this just really pissed me off, and even if the other things didnt happen it still would have majorly pissed me off. I dont know if I even want to see him now if this is how he is, cause I dont need more disapointment in my life, I give myself enough of that. But thats not the road I want to walk down tonight. Really how hard is it to pick up the phone and say, "Hey Amanda, Im sorry but I have to cancel our plans for the night something else came up" " Ok that sucks" "Yah, Im sorry" "No its alright, another time" "Sounds good give me a call"
Would that really have been a hard conversation to have?
Im really pissed right now, and after a really good Friday too, Friday was great I had so much fun. Sat sucked except for the play I went to see "Blood Brothers" that was good but leading up to it and after it sucked. I just need more company durring the weekend, I come off this great high from Thursday night then Friday night and then nothing and noone of Sat or Sunday, it really sucks for me, every Sat and Sun I go through this mini deprestion and I dont like it but I guess thats just the way life goes sometimes,
so um yah... I guess that all sorry to those who hate listening to my problems all the time, but I have this journal to get them out and just think about all those posts you dont see that are privet or only for select people, and trust me, not many if any of you see all my posts... ok well I'm to wired to sleep right now but I think Im done with this post.
Above paragraphs separated by Michelle(I did this one and the ones below)
And the last straw to the night my cat is sleeping on Michelles side of the bed, that jerk, and yes we are sharing a bed cause two wont fit in this room, and yes if I havent said so my KitKat now lives in this house.
Michelle is training me to use paragraphs
How am I doing
Am I over useing them yet
Michelle are you happy?
Well are you?
And now one of these times wasnt a big deal cause it was more of a give me a call and we will do something tomorro thing, but I called and no responce, one thing we had been planning for a while like weeks, but they slept in, and then were stranded, we still got to hang out but not doing what I wanted to, and I had sat around waiting so I didnt get to do what I wanted to at all.
And then the last one, the one that really pissed me off, we talked at 7:30 online decided after he got out of the shower he would give me a call and we would go out to Grittys for a drink, I havent seen this person sence 1999 when he graduated, so I was looking forward to it, well what time is it now? 11? and still no call, Im fucking pissed, he said he wanted to stop by and see a friend real quick and then go out I should have know we wouldnt end up doing anything, but he could have atleast fucking called.
Maybe his thought prosses was hey its been 6 years whats another day or two, but call and say you cant do something anymore, Dont just not call so I sit around for hours looking like an ass whos friends dont care enough about to keep their plans or even let them know they arent up for it. I'm sorry this just really pissed me off, and even if the other things didnt happen it still would have majorly pissed me off. I dont know if I even want to see him now if this is how he is, cause I dont need more disapointment in my life, I give myself enough of that. But thats not the road I want to walk down tonight. Really how hard is it to pick up the phone and say, "Hey Amanda, Im sorry but I have to cancel our plans for the night something else came up" " Ok that sucks" "Yah, Im sorry" "No its alright, another time" "Sounds good give me a call"
Would that really have been a hard conversation to have?
Im really pissed right now, and after a really good Friday too, Friday was great I had so much fun. Sat sucked except for the play I went to see "Blood Brothers" that was good but leading up to it and after it sucked. I just need more company durring the weekend, I come off this great high from Thursday night then Friday night and then nothing and noone of Sat or Sunday, it really sucks for me, every Sat and Sun I go through this mini deprestion and I dont like it but I guess thats just the way life goes sometimes,
so um yah... I guess that all sorry to those who hate listening to my problems all the time, but I have this journal to get them out and just think about all those posts you dont see that are privet or only for select people, and trust me, not many if any of you see all my posts... ok well I'm to wired to sleep right now but I think Im done with this post.
Above paragraphs separated by Michelle(I did this one and the ones below)
And the last straw to the night my cat is sleeping on Michelles side of the bed, that jerk, and yes we are sharing a bed cause two wont fit in this room, and yes if I havent said so my KitKat now lives in this house.
Michelle is training me to use paragraphs
How am I doing
Am I over useing them yet
Michelle are you happy?
Well are you?