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I'm feeling weird. Its unsettling. I feel as though...I don't even know.
I'm restless.
I want to write each of them a letter. Apologies. Explanations. Complaints. Angry, hateful jabs.
I'm sorry I fucked up our friendship; no excuses - shit fucked up.
Everything about you makes me want cringe because everything about you drew me to you.
I thought I could change things to work out for me, but I knew better.
I wanted things to work so badly because I didn't want to be alone.
Thank you for being there in my darkest hour...and fuck you for giving me another darkest hour to get over...
I loved the idea of us more than us, I think - because I thought you needed me.
You didn't need me and it tore me apart.
I believed you, you lied - fuck you.
Don't pretend for my sake because I know you better than you think.
I feel compelled to fix this, but mostly I just want it behind me.
(Which one's you?)
I'm restless.
I want to write each of them a letter. Apologies. Explanations. Complaints. Angry, hateful jabs.
I'm sorry I fucked up our friendship; no excuses - shit fucked up.
Everything about you makes me want cringe because everything about you drew me to you.
I thought I could change things to work out for me, but I knew better.
I wanted things to work so badly because I didn't want to be alone.
Thank you for being there in my darkest hour...and fuck you for giving me another darkest hour to get over...
I loved the idea of us more than us, I think - because I thought you needed me.
You didn't need me and it tore me apart.
I believed you, you lied - fuck you.
Don't pretend for my sake because I know you better than you think.
I feel compelled to fix this, but mostly I just want it behind me.
(Which one's you?)