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I love the time and in between
The calm inside me
In the space where I can breathe
I believe there is a
Distance I have wandered
To touch upon the years of
Reaching out and reaching in
Holding out holding in
I believe
This is heaven to no one else but me
And I'll defend it as long as I can be
Left here to linger in silence
If I choose to
Would you try to understand
I know this love is passing time
Passing through like liquid
I am drunk in my desire...
But I love the way you smile at me
I love the way your hands reach out and hold me near...
I believe...
I believe
Oh the quiet child awaits the day when she can break free
The mold that clings like desperation
Mother can't you see I've got
To live my life the way I feel is right for me
Might not be right for you but it's right for me...
I believe...
I believe
Would you try to understand...
I dreamt I learned to levitate. Chris and Irina were thrilled. Very uplifting. Got some good advice today. Readjust my chi. Remember karma. Be honest. Be forthright.
I'm so sick and tired of being drained of energy. Giving to people who give little back, who never once make an attempt to stand on their own. I cannot solve other people's bullshit. And I can't even pretend to want to give a damn. Sometimes I wish I could just be a bitch and get it over with. Just be really honest. Completely. Without fear. Without hesitation.
Perhaps my actions lack a certain consideration of others' feelings. Perhaps it's all to hard to explain away but I couldn't give less of a shit. When was the last time I looked out for just me? Didn't do something out of spite or just to make a fucking point? When is it my turn to be happy?
Now. Right now. And I'm going to make it happen. I'm not going to put up with shit anymore. My heart goes out to those who do not grab it and try to keep it for themselves. I offer so much to the people I love, and those who do not abuse it will keep getting it.
When I am in my heaven, I do not want to be disturbed. And if you can't find your own heaven, stop trying to copy mine. It doesn't work that way.
When things turn upside down, one thing will be constant. One thing will keep me grounded. One thing will be left to look forward to. And I am so thankful. So pleased. So happy.
The calm inside me
In the space where I can breathe
I believe there is a
Distance I have wandered
To touch upon the years of
Reaching out and reaching in
Holding out holding in
I believe
This is heaven to no one else but me
And I'll defend it as long as I can be
Left here to linger in silence
If I choose to
Would you try to understand
I know this love is passing time
Passing through like liquid
I am drunk in my desire...
But I love the way you smile at me
I love the way your hands reach out and hold me near...
I believe...
I believe
Oh the quiet child awaits the day when she can break free
The mold that clings like desperation
Mother can't you see I've got
To live my life the way I feel is right for me
Might not be right for you but it's right for me...
I believe...
I believe
Would you try to understand...
I dreamt I learned to levitate. Chris and Irina were thrilled. Very uplifting. Got some good advice today. Readjust my chi. Remember karma. Be honest. Be forthright.
I'm so sick and tired of being drained of energy. Giving to people who give little back, who never once make an attempt to stand on their own. I cannot solve other people's bullshit. And I can't even pretend to want to give a damn. Sometimes I wish I could just be a bitch and get it over with. Just be really honest. Completely. Without fear. Without hesitation.
Perhaps my actions lack a certain consideration of others' feelings. Perhaps it's all to hard to explain away but I couldn't give less of a shit. When was the last time I looked out for just me? Didn't do something out of spite or just to make a fucking point? When is it my turn to be happy?
Now. Right now. And I'm going to make it happen. I'm not going to put up with shit anymore. My heart goes out to those who do not grab it and try to keep it for themselves. I offer so much to the people I love, and those who do not abuse it will keep getting it.
When I am in my heaven, I do not want to be disturbed. And if you can't find your own heaven, stop trying to copy mine. It doesn't work that way.
When things turn upside down, one thing will be constant. One thing will keep me grounded. One thing will be left to look forward to. And I am so thankful. So pleased. So happy.