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so i think i've finally realized that addison just isn't my home anymore. i love my friends adn family, but addison just doesn't feel like home. every time i'm there, i'm just waiting for my next chance to get out again. now my parents are talking about pulling me out of school again. maybe i should just pretend i'm not sick. i just can't imagine spending another year at home. i don't know if i'd be able to do it. i know i can't live in my dorm forever, but i can try my hardest to stay at school for as long as possible. i mean, i have a chance to be here over the summer, it's just going to take a little work. but i'm up to it. the question is, is my body going to let me do it? i can't keep getting these episodes of illness. it's almost been a year now. how long can i keep this up before i completely shut down? i dont' know, but if i have to, i'll push myself to that point and beyond...