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i feel that here in the "now" is time to do a really long update about stuff thats hapening to me, that no ones going to read, which is so absolutely normal. and for the people who get past this first paragraph *insert meika there* woot to you. thanks for being bored enough to waste your time on me. im proud and honoured. but still in the effect of writing long entries of shit it keeps me a little bit sane believeing that someone of my friends at least sorta knows whats going on with me and will therefore not forget about me. but everyones forgetttable and ill bet you have all been forgotten at one stage and ill bet that it was painful. and ill bet that your murdered someone. or is that me looking into the future? or is that me freaking out about the homicidal maniac at work who is obsessed with a canadian model and wants to kill me. motive could be anything. im really a terrible person and i could never blame ne1 for wanting to kill me cause im so absolutely killable im surprised it hasnt already been done but to send all of you who only read the first paragraoh off - good day to you 1 graph readers.
im talking shit and i know it. and i dont care. and screw you who are judgemental and bitchy. i havnt been sleeping so you cant talk to me about me talking insanely cause its like ne of those thigns you do when you are a walking zombie. but i dont want to be a zombie. ill make me a walking mole rat. cause mole rats are actually blind therefore they walk around with their eyes closed and thats how i want to be. with eyes closed in bed. but being in bed dont make me sleep neway so noooooooo point. but yeah in case my mole rat info is out of date or generally wrong im just a bat with bad hearing then, cause ther blind too. but yeah.
i COULD have put a link to this really long pointless update but that just is considerate and gives you more reason to not read it or at least skim for any CAPS words. and im not in a considerate mood, much like joel last night who high beamed like every car through wynnum. but yeah ive been trying to call this lecturer all day to get him to taell me what courses to do externally at uni, heh that absolutely making sense, and hes like not picking up the fone so im all like screw you man, ill call again like on monday u ass. but yeah have to get all that done by like i think about the whers of 15 of july. nut mrs klutke grde5 treacher from moreton bay is my sisters best frinds mum and like i kno her real wekll and some round about way i got her son on my msn list and i was talking to him bout rufus and he tld his muma nd she was like thats so amanda and i was like aww how cute of lil ms klutke. oh and last night i met this chick adn she knows georgia!! HEY GEORGIA!! i met a chick who knows you!and yeah last night i had the best food ever ever ever. it was that good it needs 3 evers.
but yesh im going insane. like really totally insane like back in the days when i was totaly loopy and woot i think its probably a really bad thing to be so not caring about if my life goes to shit and i loose my job and all my money but hey!!! what can you do?? eh? ill have a boyfriend who looks after me, untill he leaves me cause im terrible and a bum living in the sticks. so thats my future, what do you think your going to be getting up to in the next few eh? but hey, ill just plod along like a lil miniture pony all unwanted with ruffled notty matted hair, dirt on my back, grass in my mouth, dying of lack of water, with ugly teeth, and a snotty nose. and a vert sweaty smell. of horse
but ill bet all you guys who have parents willing to drive you to work if you loose your license will be ok, with money and a house, and an education past grde 12. at leats ill stil have my car, ill live in it, then seel it to buy myself a cardboard box cause its cheaper.but moving on. umm. its my birtday soon. my 18th birthday. and ym boys not going to be there, and my sisters going to be gone, and most of those ppl who are sposed to be ther arnt going to. so my part is the day before my bday, im going to get really really drunk and pass out for the whole day and when i eventually emerge frome the spew soaked bathroom my birthday will be gone, ill be 18 and i can catch a cab to a pub with all the money i dont have and do it all again. but the party should be really good, if ne1 turns up. at the moment my work freinds are coming and them by themself make a party so i shuld be ok. but
in regards to the invite list of my party it will really impact my whole ideas of everything. i mean, if some people who i really want to come dont, ill just be like fuck hey. thats a bit of a shitter and then throw myself in the fire. or if i dont go that extreme ill watch the video that is going to be taken of my party and see who was ther and then get up all those ppl who i though were important and tell them i hate them and i never want to see them again. and they really wont think its that big of a deal which will make me more upset and then because im a tool and i will always want to keep trying ill start talking to them again and still fell like an unwanted peice of trodden on pink streamer, that people used to enjoy tying arounf their wrists until something new and better came along, like bracelets. stupid bracelets. i hate you. destroy all bracelets. and my way of thinking is so warped right now it must be really funy. im going to read this again tomorrow and think about what a dick i am.
but at the moment im all like hoohaa lets make a huge update about nuthing like everyone else does. i want to be a sheeeepppp. i thought it was so easy to follow a herd but no, you sheep all act the same but are diffrent on the inside, your guts are diffrent to you skin. some of you are weak, some of you dont work properly, some of you are pristine intestinal text book cases. and im a little old giraffe here carrying around a woolen blanket wanting to act as if im a sheep but seeing theres no point cause there is no real herd. just a bunch of animals attached to eah other cause they dont want to be alone, they want to protect each other from predators by staying close. well, me 2 but you cant change what you are, and im a giraffe. or some other abstract animal. does ne1 else want to be a giraffe?? you get to see the world.
and im so lost as to whatever i was talking about, i want to drink myself to sleep and i have a very large collection of spirits to do so but im going to go out instead, with people. who sorta want me around, i think. who knoes, and what good does it do to know?
i have a headache, i always have a headache theses days, i think its my hair. or im dying. pfft and im so enthusisstic about absoltely nothing right now, the suns going down - ngith woot! i dont get what im oin about mehich means you probalby dotn wither, but it hink itslike thaat part of the im tierd fase wher everythings realy exciting and wow!! and
WOW!!!! something totaly cool is so going to happen, or im going to pass out!!
i start work at 6 in the mornign, no 7 6 IS Wcaps!! 6 is when i have to get up. upp getting is gay like totally gay!! like up the bum without lube gay, and tyhats really gross tot hink about. ew
i hope all you gay guys use...... i gess youd be ok, just a bit like OMG i am soooo stopping ther ^ DLEETED BIT ABOUT GAYNESS
im listnen to teechono, its fun and really hardd to type while sitting on a exercise ball bouncing and falling off and hitting my head and other parts of me on hard object, hard obnjects can be sooo rude, but yeah techon/!!! that could be why im soo like wow about everythin g cause techno when tierd does some funny shit
im gna go dye my hair
im talking shit and i know it. and i dont care. and screw you who are judgemental and bitchy. i havnt been sleeping so you cant talk to me about me talking insanely cause its like ne of those thigns you do when you are a walking zombie. but i dont want to be a zombie. ill make me a walking mole rat. cause mole rats are actually blind therefore they walk around with their eyes closed and thats how i want to be. with eyes closed in bed. but being in bed dont make me sleep neway so noooooooo point. but yeah in case my mole rat info is out of date or generally wrong im just a bat with bad hearing then, cause ther blind too. but yeah.
i COULD have put a link to this really long pointless update but that just is considerate and gives you more reason to not read it or at least skim for any CAPS words. and im not in a considerate mood, much like joel last night who high beamed like every car through wynnum. but yeah ive been trying to call this lecturer all day to get him to taell me what courses to do externally at uni, heh that absolutely making sense, and hes like not picking up the fone so im all like screw you man, ill call again like on monday u ass. but yeah have to get all that done by like i think about the whers of 15 of july. nut mrs klutke grde5 treacher from moreton bay is my sisters best frinds mum and like i kno her real wekll and some round about way i got her son on my msn list and i was talking to him bout rufus and he tld his muma nd she was like thats so amanda and i was like aww how cute of lil ms klutke. oh and last night i met this chick adn she knows georgia!! HEY GEORGIA!! i met a chick who knows you!and yeah last night i had the best food ever ever ever. it was that good it needs 3 evers.
but yesh im going insane. like really totally insane like back in the days when i was totaly loopy and woot i think its probably a really bad thing to be so not caring about if my life goes to shit and i loose my job and all my money but hey!!! what can you do?? eh? ill have a boyfriend who looks after me, untill he leaves me cause im terrible and a bum living in the sticks. so thats my future, what do you think your going to be getting up to in the next few eh? but hey, ill just plod along like a lil miniture pony all unwanted with ruffled notty matted hair, dirt on my back, grass in my mouth, dying of lack of water, with ugly teeth, and a snotty nose. and a vert sweaty smell. of horse
but ill bet all you guys who have parents willing to drive you to work if you loose your license will be ok, with money and a house, and an education past grde 12. at leats ill stil have my car, ill live in it, then seel it to buy myself a cardboard box cause its cheaper.but moving on. umm. its my birtday soon. my 18th birthday. and ym boys not going to be there, and my sisters going to be gone, and most of those ppl who are sposed to be ther arnt going to. so my part is the day before my bday, im going to get really really drunk and pass out for the whole day and when i eventually emerge frome the spew soaked bathroom my birthday will be gone, ill be 18 and i can catch a cab to a pub with all the money i dont have and do it all again. but the party should be really good, if ne1 turns up. at the moment my work freinds are coming and them by themself make a party so i shuld be ok. but
in regards to the invite list of my party it will really impact my whole ideas of everything. i mean, if some people who i really want to come dont, ill just be like fuck hey. thats a bit of a shitter and then throw myself in the fire. or if i dont go that extreme ill watch the video that is going to be taken of my party and see who was ther and then get up all those ppl who i though were important and tell them i hate them and i never want to see them again. and they really wont think its that big of a deal which will make me more upset and then because im a tool and i will always want to keep trying ill start talking to them again and still fell like an unwanted peice of trodden on pink streamer, that people used to enjoy tying arounf their wrists until something new and better came along, like bracelets. stupid bracelets. i hate you. destroy all bracelets. and my way of thinking is so warped right now it must be really funy. im going to read this again tomorrow and think about what a dick i am.
but at the moment im all like hoohaa lets make a huge update about nuthing like everyone else does. i want to be a sheeeepppp. i thought it was so easy to follow a herd but no, you sheep all act the same but are diffrent on the inside, your guts are diffrent to you skin. some of you are weak, some of you dont work properly, some of you are pristine intestinal text book cases. and im a little old giraffe here carrying around a woolen blanket wanting to act as if im a sheep but seeing theres no point cause there is no real herd. just a bunch of animals attached to eah other cause they dont want to be alone, they want to protect each other from predators by staying close. well, me 2 but you cant change what you are, and im a giraffe. or some other abstract animal. does ne1 else want to be a giraffe?? you get to see the world.
and im so lost as to whatever i was talking about, i want to drink myself to sleep and i have a very large collection of spirits to do so but im going to go out instead, with people. who sorta want me around, i think. who knoes, and what good does it do to know?
i have a headache, i always have a headache theses days, i think its my hair. or im dying. pfft and im so enthusisstic about absoltely nothing right now, the suns going down - ngith woot! i dont get what im oin about mehich means you probalby dotn wither, but it hink itslike thaat part of the im tierd fase wher everythings realy exciting and wow!! and
WOW!!!! something totaly cool is so going to happen, or im going to pass out!!
i start work at 6 in the mornign, no 7 6 IS Wcaps!! 6 is when i have to get up. upp getting is gay like totally gay!! like up the bum without lube gay, and tyhats really gross tot hink about. ew
i hope all you gay guys use...... i gess youd be ok, just a bit like OMG i am soooo stopping ther ^ DLEETED BIT ABOUT GAYNESS
im listnen to teechono, its fun and really hardd to type while sitting on a exercise ball bouncing and falling off and hitting my head and other parts of me on hard object, hard obnjects can be sooo rude, but yeah techon/!!! that could be why im soo like wow about everythin g cause techno when tierd does some funny shit
im gna go dye my hair