Back to Normal...
Josh is finally back home, and I am so happy. He arrived at about 8am this morning, and it wasn't a moment too soon. It was so lonely here without him. I think his being away definitely opened my eyes to a lot of things. I am genuinely happy when he is around. I enjoy simply being near him. When something dramatic or exciting happens, he is the one I want to run and tell. It might sound sappy, and to me it is even a little scary, but it is my reality.
So yeah, things are wonderful. I'm beginning to realize that this is like a real, adult relationship. Most of you know Josh, and he and I's history. I have sat to the side and watched him use girl after girl. I even played along, convincing some of them that he really wasn't using them. I guess I didn't realize how much all of that history would effect me. For instance, I now have had trouble trusting him, because I have seen him lie to so many girls in the past. We have battled this for months, but I think I am starting to get over some of it. I've never seen him act this way with anyone (real or fiction). For those of you who are saying "I don't believe it" haha...I wouldn't believe it either if I wasn't living it. For now, things are almost fairy tale like, and I am beginning to think about the rest of my life. Yes, it is kind of creepy...
Well, for now I am just going to take it one day at a time.
So yeah, things are wonderful. I'm beginning to realize that this is like a real, adult relationship. Most of you know Josh, and he and I's history. I have sat to the side and watched him use girl after girl. I even played along, convincing some of them that he really wasn't using them. I guess I didn't realize how much all of that history would effect me. For instance, I now have had trouble trusting him, because I have seen him lie to so many girls in the past. We have battled this for months, but I think I am starting to get over some of it. I've never seen him act this way with anyone (real or fiction). For those of you who are saying "I don't believe it" haha...I wouldn't believe it either if I wasn't living it. For now, things are almost fairy tale like, and I am beginning to think about the rest of my life. Yes, it is kind of creepy...
Well, for now I am just going to take it one day at a time.