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welp, went to bed at 7 this morning after trapesing around hagerstown and shepherdstown all night. travis, amanda, aaron and i went to the skating rink and had an interesting time and then went to get lollipops. you know, those snow cones with soft serve ice cream in the middle and on top. yep, ate those in 30 degree weather. then we met leighanne at denny's and all proceeded to be in a really bad mood. but then again, i'm always in a really bad mood nowadays. then it was off to walmart and we trudged about there for a while before deciding to go off to leighanne's apartment. i rode up by myself b/c aaron went with leighanne, naturally, so i had myself a good crying fit and listened to "you oughta know" as loud as it would play on my car stereo and screamed. i'm not jealous that leighanne and aaron like eachother, i'm selfish, you see.i'm selfish b/c i don't have anyone,and all of my friends that find someone detracts away from me.i know, i'm horrible. it's b/c i'm miserable and i want everyone else to be miserable too.misery loves company. she throws dinner parties every night. pretty soon it's just going to be me and misery, drinking a box of wine. i don't know why i'm so depressed really. ok, i'm lying, it's b/c i miss mike. and no matter what i do, i feel empty. and i don't know if it's all b/c of mike or b/c theres something missing within me that he has no control over. i think i need therapy. :/