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well, i got up at 11:30 this morning after realizing i forgot to call brit after getting home last night. :/. oops.so d and i are supposed to go house shopping tomorrow, which is exciting and scary at the same time, you know? i think it'll be really good for me to get out of hagerstown and be out on my own for once.plus, i need to live closer to the school, for my own sanity, and so my car doesn't die. right now everything in hagerstown has mike written all over it and i can't deal with that. it's too depressing.as much as i don't want to say it loud, i'm depressed and i hate it, but there's nothing i can do.i can shop and fill the void up with material possessions and i can tell myself i'm fabulous and i don't need him, and i can eat a whole lot of food that i think makes me feel better, but in the end, it doesn't. but i don't even know if this really is the end. but if you'll excuse me, i'm going scarf shopping with my "boyfriend" david. and then to borders. merry christmas to me.