Worst nightmare
Dear_____,
I've reached to a point where I've got no one else left except you. 4 to 8 years of friendship cant be compared to our 3months relationship but I just dont get why do you always choose to think the negative part of me (eg. me not caring, throwing tantrum etc.) . It's just fucking 3months and we ended up in this state where you cannot tolerate my nonsense anymore. I was disappointed with myself, and with you too. Because now you let me realise guys are the same. They tell you forever and they left. However, I still manage to get you back into my arms. It was as if I got woken up by my worst nightmare.
That particular day, it seriously saddens me. My heart literally hurt, alot. I fucking swear. I never once met a guy that likes most of the things I prefer. Though some other people think its a pain 'cause you've to quarrel/fight over the same particular stuff but I find it a joy, to share with you every single thing. I may be selfish sometimes.. And why on earth would you dont believe that my life wouldnt be better without you? Did you even hear me? I love you so much, so much. I know I hurt you in some way or another but what about me? You said I treat you like toy/dog, I did whatever you say but I still held you back because you meant so much to me. I've never persuade someone for so long, I've never done so much for anyone. But I'm afraid, afraid of the outcome. How? And I thought loving a person, you do not care about her flaws and learn to accept it. Oh well, the only thing I think that I can't change is being too over-sensetive/paraniod about every single shit.
I still hope you mean what you say, luv.-
Take note!!
How to overcome?
1)Fucking force yourself to stop asking who called/text or even view his messages. NEVER. NOT ANYMORE! If he wants to tell, he will. If he wants to keep it from you, THEN LET IT BE!!
2)Do not talk/ask questions about any, ANY ex-girlfriends.
3)If he look or talk to any girl, just fucking stay calm and act as if you're not jealous at all!
That's for now.