You give me fever
"At the copa....copacabana...the hottest night club in Havana." So this weekend was the fashion show. yeaaaaaaa it was awesome! I got to SI on saturday at 10:30 and had dance till 1, when I had to go to the fashion show rehearsal. Later that night I modeled my awesome blue mermaid dress and red satin gown. I also danced to singin in the rain with gene kelly and sunshine cake where we got to wear 2 lb. cakes on our heads. And of course, me being me, mine fell off on stage during the dance. It was so embarrassing until Alia's, my partner, fell off too. It was great. And then i found out that after the show I had to go on stage with Jessica Morse's grandfather and dance with him while he sang songs. It was sooo embarrasing and kinda creepy, but he was such a nice man that he made me feel comfortable. Sunday was the same schedule and by the time it was over, I was completely exhausted. But it was so fun and totally worth it. It made me want to lose 50 lbs and become a runway model. I would have so much fun wearing outrageous clothes, getting my hair and makeup done, and actually being able to keep the clothes I model. I think I would make a funny model lol. wow.....only in my dreams.
So yea this weekend was fun but defintely not fun emotionally. I had many deep conversations and heart to hearts with people about relationships with friends. After that and some harsh remarks today, I've realized that I'm an extremely paranoid person and I need to stop. And I apologize to anyone who thinks I am only their friend because other people are not at the time, that is soooo not true and I kinda resent you thinking that. but oh well, things will work out in the end hopefully.
So yea this weekend was fun but defintely not fun emotionally. I had many deep conversations and heart to hearts with people about relationships with friends. After that and some harsh remarks today, I've realized that I'm an extremely paranoid person and I need to stop. And I apologize to anyone who thinks I am only their friend because other people are not at the time, that is soooo not true and I kinda resent you thinking that. but oh well, things will work out in the end hopefully.