a sigh of relief
So, I don't know if I should keep writing in this, because it seems like two entirely different people writing at times. I've been so fucked up with everything lately. I've had too much on my mind to get through, but I'm pretty sure I've gotten through it now.
I'm no longer going to major in film. It's been a long time coming, and I've made my final decision. I got into my first real, hands on, film class this semester, and it's not at all what i expected. It's not what I want. For a long while now, I've been convincing myself that I want to stick with this and stay in this profession. But when it comes down to what I really want to do with my life, it's not in film. Tomorrow I'm going to an advisor in the business school here, talk to them about what I want to do, and most likely, change my major to general business.
Film to business seems like the most random change possible, but in reality, it's not. In the back of my mind, having my own bookstore/record store/coffee shop/etc has always been a big dream of mine. With everything that I've been thinking about lately: where my future is going, where I really want to go with my life; it only seems right that I figure the core of the situation out. And that's what I'm doing.
As for the other things, i.e. my summer plans; there is possible light at the end of that tunnel. I'm not getting my hopes up, but we shall see.
Also, I went to kickboxing tonight with the girls (Kate, Tina, and Caitlin), and it was wonderful. Kicked my ass, but in the best way possible. Can't wait until next Monday.
I'm no longer going to major in film. It's been a long time coming, and I've made my final decision. I got into my first real, hands on, film class this semester, and it's not at all what i expected. It's not what I want. For a long while now, I've been convincing myself that I want to stick with this and stay in this profession. But when it comes down to what I really want to do with my life, it's not in film. Tomorrow I'm going to an advisor in the business school here, talk to them about what I want to do, and most likely, change my major to general business.
Film to business seems like the most random change possible, but in reality, it's not. In the back of my mind, having my own bookstore/record store/coffee shop/etc has always been a big dream of mine. With everything that I've been thinking about lately: where my future is going, where I really want to go with my life; it only seems right that I figure the core of the situation out. And that's what I'm doing.
As for the other things, i.e. my summer plans; there is possible light at the end of that tunnel. I'm not getting my hopes up, but we shall see.
Also, I went to kickboxing tonight with the girls (Kate, Tina, and Caitlin), and it was wonderful. Kicked my ass, but in the best way possible. Can't wait until next Monday.