Dec 07, 2009 21:30
[deep breath]
I didn't register for Boston in time. And the 2010 race is now closed. It took me nearly a month to tell everyone because I am still so insanely embarrassed.
I worked my a*s off for months. I planned and sacrificed and ran my heart out. I told everyone I've ever met that I was running Boston, and now I cannot. It is completely my fault, completely shockingly stupid, and I'm still reacting to it.
I'd read prior to NIKE that the race typically closes in December, and I was waiting (stupidly, asininely, like a complete loser) for my December 1 paycheck so I could afford to pay the entry fee in "cash" without using a credit card for the steep $130 price tag. What a stupid rationale, as I could have borrowed the money from about 1000 different generous parties and been done with it.
I actually opened my laptop the day after NIKE and looked at the registration form, then got caught up in post-race fun and put it on my to-do list. And I to-DIDN'T. And I won't. All because I read somewhere, months and months ago, that I had time.
When you are pursuing your goals, there is no time to wait. Start now. You'll never forgive yourself if you don't.
embarrassment,
procrastination,
failure,
defeat,
running,
marathon