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Things have been nuts lately for a number of reasons.
-Getting myself and the platoon ready to deploy in January for 13 months.
-I'm now the XO in addition to a platoon commander.
-Getting a new platoon sergeant.
-A steady slew of house guests for the last three weeks.
-Marines do stupid shit.
-Getting a new boss (who I really like.)
-My old boss trying to do me dirty.
-Spending the last three weeks in training events.
All in all, I'm pretty pleased with how things are going, but I'm feeling more than a little burned out though. I sort of think of myself as having two different and discrete personalities that I flip a little switch to change between. One personality is the Marine officer and the other is just the normal person. Lately it's felt like the two have been merging. I've had a hard time leaving work at work. I'm often thinking about work when I'm at home. I've had dreams about work. I bring home tension from work and just can't unwind, which isn't good considering the change in living situation.
It's a little bit scary for all of this to be happening. Right now I feel like I'm approaching the point where I am the confident, borderline cocky, lieutenant who knows their shit and makes stuff happen. I like the bit of swagger that it gives me and I think I'm a damn good lieutenant at work, but I'm not necessarily as big of a fan of it at home or in my personal life. Outside of work I can't make a decision, bark an order and expect it to be followed.
I used to be good at turning on and off the Marine me and keeping it separate from the normal me, but now the two of them are melding together. I don't know if this is one of those things that is normal maturation for all people, if it's typical for Marine officers or, more likely, it's one of the weird mental things that only I conjure up.
-Getting myself and the platoon ready to deploy in January for 13 months.
-I'm now the XO in addition to a platoon commander.
-Getting a new platoon sergeant.
-A steady slew of house guests for the last three weeks.
-Marines do stupid shit.
-Getting a new boss (who I really like.)
-My old boss trying to do me dirty.
-Spending the last three weeks in training events.
All in all, I'm pretty pleased with how things are going, but I'm feeling more than a little burned out though. I sort of think of myself as having two different and discrete personalities that I flip a little switch to change between. One personality is the Marine officer and the other is just the normal person. Lately it's felt like the two have been merging. I've had a hard time leaving work at work. I'm often thinking about work when I'm at home. I've had dreams about work. I bring home tension from work and just can't unwind, which isn't good considering the change in living situation.
It's a little bit scary for all of this to be happening. Right now I feel like I'm approaching the point where I am the confident, borderline cocky, lieutenant who knows their shit and makes stuff happen. I like the bit of swagger that it gives me and I think I'm a damn good lieutenant at work, but I'm not necessarily as big of a fan of it at home or in my personal life. Outside of work I can't make a decision, bark an order and expect it to be followed.
I used to be good at turning on and off the Marine me and keeping it separate from the normal me, but now the two of them are melding together. I don't know if this is one of those things that is normal maturation for all people, if it's typical for Marine officers or, more likely, it's one of the weird mental things that only I conjure up.