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Clearly I continue to fail at updating tis thing. >_<;;; Oh, well. That's just how it goes.
Something I really did want to write a full entry about was the Supernatural Con Amy and I went to early in October. Maybe I still will write a detailed post about it. Someday. Suffice it to say, for now, that it was a really amazing weekend that made me feel the happiest I have in a long time. Even if there was also tons of the usual social anxiety that I will probably never escape from. Le sigh.
Right now I'm mostly feeling sad about not having people to really share the things I care about with. It's kind of hard to explain. Have you ever seen something that just made you so happy, or so content, or maybe something that just made you laugh and feel good, and then thought, 'Man, I want to share this with EVERYBODY so that they can feel this way, too!'. And you're all :D about it cuz it's so awesome and you try to share it with people. BUT THEN NOBODY CARES. Hell, nobody even wants to give it a chance. Augh, it's just so heartbreaking. T_T
It's actually part of the reason why the Supernatural Convention was so awesome. It was such a small, intimate convention and there was a real sense of 'Wow, these are people who get it, at least to some degree or another, in some way or another. They love this thing, too.' I have so many other things in my life that there's just nobody else I really know that cares about them at all. It sucks. And efforts to spread the love are just thrown back in my face.
Why are there so many great things out there that are so unappreciaed? It's just tragic. Also, why are most people so reluctant to give things that don't immediately interest them a chance, even for a friend?
Why yes, I am feeling a little maudlin tonight. XD
Something I really did want to write a full entry about was the Supernatural Con Amy and I went to early in October. Maybe I still will write a detailed post about it. Someday. Suffice it to say, for now, that it was a really amazing weekend that made me feel the happiest I have in a long time. Even if there was also tons of the usual social anxiety that I will probably never escape from. Le sigh.
Right now I'm mostly feeling sad about not having people to really share the things I care about with. It's kind of hard to explain. Have you ever seen something that just made you so happy, or so content, or maybe something that just made you laugh and feel good, and then thought, 'Man, I want to share this with EVERYBODY so that they can feel this way, too!'. And you're all :D about it cuz it's so awesome and you try to share it with people. BUT THEN NOBODY CARES. Hell, nobody even wants to give it a chance. Augh, it's just so heartbreaking. T_T
It's actually part of the reason why the Supernatural Convention was so awesome. It was such a small, intimate convention and there was a real sense of 'Wow, these are people who get it, at least to some degree or another, in some way or another. They love this thing, too.' I have so many other things in my life that there's just nobody else I really know that cares about them at all. It sucks. And efforts to spread the love are just thrown back in my face.
Why are there so many great things out there that are so unappreciaed? It's just tragic. Also, why are most people so reluctant to give things that don't immediately interest them a chance, even for a friend?
Why yes, I am feeling a little maudlin tonight. XD