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This week was so different, I was smiling, happy. Yet once again, this weekend is the same. Maybe I shouldn't expect things to change so fast but they chaged so much last week. Maybe I'm being an optomist. I guess I need to stop hoping for something that will obviously never happen.
But who am I kidding? I'll never stop. I thought maybe that lunch would have changed something, but no. It's horrible but you could not care less. And I am left with the weight of our non-exisistant friendship. I probably sound like a cry baby, a whiner who just needs to move on, but it's not that easy when you're on this side of the equation.
Oh to not care, how wonderful it would be.
But who am I kidding? I'll never stop. I thought maybe that lunch would have changed something, but no. It's horrible but you could not care less. And I am left with the weight of our non-exisistant friendship. I probably sound like a cry baby, a whiner who just needs to move on, but it's not that easy when you're on this side of the equation.
Oh to not care, how wonderful it would be.