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I'm sick of being the one that is the prick because she doesnt want to drink...listen guys, been there done that and i don't wnat to see you all when your drunk...i've known you for too long, i don't wnat to see you like that and more importantly, i don't want to be used for a DD...
I have too much to lose, too much to fuck up...but now i seem like a loser, now i'm out of place
Not to sound redundant but, I don't belong or at least I don't feel like I do...and it's not like you guys are making it any easier on me
A year and a few months, that's all I have untill I'm gone...forever...and I'll more than likely never see you guys again...and yes, I'll miss the good times but I sure as hell won't miss right now...I just have to detach myself even more, so that when the time comes...I feel nothing...None of this heart ache...when the time comes, I want to be able to leave and never look back
I never thought I was as dispenable as you all have made me out to be, I never wanted to believe that a best friend could replaced over night but that's what ahs happened and stupid petty arguments have left me alone, but hell, we haven't even ahd an argument...all of a sudden, I'm out and no one seems to notice...
Yes, there's days and times when I feel part of somethign again, but really, I feel more at home talking to Dillon or Zakk or Marshy or Cody then I do talking to most of you
I knew it today In phsyics when we were talking about Jordan's and they gace me this god awful look when I said i wasn't going cause I didn't want to drink or be around drunk people...god, thanks for makin me feel liek shit guys...thanks a whole hell of a fucking lot
Guess I have more to talk to Diane abou than i thought...
I have too much to lose, too much to fuck up...but now i seem like a loser, now i'm out of place
Not to sound redundant but, I don't belong or at least I don't feel like I do...and it's not like you guys are making it any easier on me
A year and a few months, that's all I have untill I'm gone...forever...and I'll more than likely never see you guys again...and yes, I'll miss the good times but I sure as hell won't miss right now...I just have to detach myself even more, so that when the time comes...I feel nothing...None of this heart ache...when the time comes, I want to be able to leave and never look back
I never thought I was as dispenable as you all have made me out to be, I never wanted to believe that a best friend could replaced over night but that's what ahs happened and stupid petty arguments have left me alone, but hell, we haven't even ahd an argument...all of a sudden, I'm out and no one seems to notice...
Yes, there's days and times when I feel part of somethign again, but really, I feel more at home talking to Dillon or Zakk or Marshy or Cody then I do talking to most of you
I knew it today In phsyics when we were talking about Jordan's and they gace me this god awful look when I said i wasn't going cause I didn't want to drink or be around drunk people...god, thanks for makin me feel liek shit guys...thanks a whole hell of a fucking lot
Guess I have more to talk to Diane abou than i thought...