I'm a Bitch...
Apparently I'm a bitch...A FEMALE DOG, PEOPLE! Because Everytime I'm with my mom I feel like I'm on a leash. She ALWAYS assumes and decides for me! It's like I don't have a mind of my own...ok, maybe she is just tryin to help when she gets a job application at a store or asks for jobs for me when I'm standing two feet away...but I am fully capable of doing things on my own...ESPECIALLY making my own desicions.
I feel bad cause i kinda went off the deep end today when she ASSUMED I wanted to babysit our pastor's baby and VOULENTEERED me when I was standing right there!!! What was I supposed to say!? The truth!? "Umm...sorry, I don't really like children and I would probably drop your kid or teach them 'bad' things..." Yah...that would have gone over real well. And if I would have said, "I think I'm busy" I would have just bought myself a one way ticket to HELL...And I'm sure lying to the pastor would look great on my resume.
GRRR! And this whole job thing is really pissing me off...Its as if I wasn't bummed out already because NO ONE has been calling me and then to have my mother filling out applications and "suggesting" I look here or there really made me mad. BELIEVE ME! I'M TRYING!!! And the last thing I need is my mother breathing down my neck! I feel so restrained and limited from making my own choices because she starts making them for me. I'm sure it is all a good intention, but sometimes it doesn't matter if it is a good or bad one; the intention is the problem in it self. I guess I'm really starting to feel the limits of living in my parents house again. After living in NY in my own dorm and having 3,000mi protection to make my own choices I finally felt like an adult, like an individual. Then all of the sudden having someone tell me to wake up by 10AM and do this and do that is like tugging back on my leash.
I feel bad cause i kinda went off the deep end today when she ASSUMED I wanted to babysit our pastor's baby and VOULENTEERED me when I was standing right there!!! What was I supposed to say!? The truth!? "Umm...sorry, I don't really like children and I would probably drop your kid or teach them 'bad' things..." Yah...that would have gone over real well. And if I would have said, "I think I'm busy" I would have just bought myself a one way ticket to HELL...And I'm sure lying to the pastor would look great on my resume.
GRRR! And this whole job thing is really pissing me off...Its as if I wasn't bummed out already because NO ONE has been calling me and then to have my mother filling out applications and "suggesting" I look here or there really made me mad. BELIEVE ME! I'M TRYING!!! And the last thing I need is my mother breathing down my neck! I feel so restrained and limited from making my own choices because she starts making them for me. I'm sure it is all a good intention, but sometimes it doesn't matter if it is a good or bad one; the intention is the problem in it self. I guess I'm really starting to feel the limits of living in my parents house again. After living in NY in my own dorm and having 3,000mi protection to make my own choices I finally felt like an adult, like an individual. Then all of the sudden having someone tell me to wake up by 10AM and do this and do that is like tugging back on my leash.