May 18, 2003 22:59
I can't help but feel like we've done everything we can and all we can do now is wait until there's a signal. We've trained, we've studied (Or at least I did), we've made well with the fact that there will be more deaths and injuries and loss...and now this is the waiting room. Waiting for Doctor Buffy or whoever to tell us to fight again, but this fight will be the last. Not those defense fights where they come out and attack us...the fight where we find them and what will be will be. Caleb was the opening act, I suppose. It's weird to look at everything like it's a play or I'm in the audience and betting on who'll go next and who's going to win.
Right now we're here and we all can feel it, this time it isn't just a thing Slayers or witches or vampires feel. There's not much time left and it's moving past us like a freight train, even when we're out training it's kind of like what's the use?
I'm at the point where I'm pulling my hair out wanting to go out there and fight and then I'm just wishing the wait can go on and we can all stay and the end will never come.