"Just once in my life, I think it'd be nice, just to lose control, just once"
Yuck, I've felt terrible the past couple days,it all started Boxing Day,when I got sick and that was just fucking great(I'm being sarcastic here)and having major assignments to work on from history just tops it all off. Its just fucking great, I've been busy working on my assignments for the past 6 days and I'm nowhere near done them and they're due January 10th, 2 days after we get back from Christmas Holidays and I'm totally freaking out, I've pretty much gotten like zero sleep because of this fucking shit. Now I'm fucking kicking myself for taking that 12U World History: The West and the World. I have to do presentations for those assignments too, and I hate presenting infront of people because I get so nervous and yet I dunno why. Its just kinda odd, considering I thought Drama Class last year helped me, but it obviously didn't. I'm so fucking stressed out, its crazy! Being sick is one thing, but having assignments to do complicates it a whole lot.
Today my mom had to have surgery to remove a tumor from her liver, because earlier she was diagonsed with liver cancer and she just got over 6 months of chemotherapy from having surgery to remove tumors from colon cancer, I got to talk to her on the phone, and she sounded kinda groggy from the drugs, but the surgery went well and she's going to go walking tomorrow. I can't go see her in the hospital because I'm still sick, but I'd love to go if I wasn't sick.
It just seems like having faith in the Lord Jesus Christ, has helped me through dealing with my mom's cancer, I pray to him everynight asking him to protect specific people,mainly the people that mean the most to me like my friends and family. It just seems like that comforts me because He watches over those people. For people who do not know, I'm an Anglican, although I do not go to church, I am still religious, I believe in the Lord and believe that if I do not sin,when I die I will go to Heaven where some family members are, like my grandparents, my brother.
I take religion very seriously, I cannot stand when people diss religion, because it just makes me very upset that people can say things which are very disrespectful to religious people like myself.
Anyways, I'm out, I got to continue working on my freaking assignments.
Amanda
Today my mom had to have surgery to remove a tumor from her liver, because earlier she was diagonsed with liver cancer and she just got over 6 months of chemotherapy from having surgery to remove tumors from colon cancer, I got to talk to her on the phone, and she sounded kinda groggy from the drugs, but the surgery went well and she's going to go walking tomorrow. I can't go see her in the hospital because I'm still sick, but I'd love to go if I wasn't sick.
It just seems like having faith in the Lord Jesus Christ, has helped me through dealing with my mom's cancer, I pray to him everynight asking him to protect specific people,mainly the people that mean the most to me like my friends and family. It just seems like that comforts me because He watches over those people. For people who do not know, I'm an Anglican, although I do not go to church, I am still religious, I believe in the Lord and believe that if I do not sin,when I die I will go to Heaven where some family members are, like my grandparents, my brother.
I take religion very seriously, I cannot stand when people diss religion, because it just makes me very upset that people can say things which are very disrespectful to religious people like myself.
Anyways, I'm out, I got to continue working on my freaking assignments.
Amanda