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Everything seems to be falling apart...Jamie quit, he might be leaving town, I can't focus on anything, I feel like I'm drowning in my own stupid depression. Emily gets it, 'cause she's going through basically the exact same thing.
I'm freaking out...I'm stressed because I have to take my stupid Chem test still, I'm missing math review tomorrow because I have to go to the surgeon again to see my why my freakin' ankle is cracking and clicking when I walk...I'm stressed about that, because I have to take my math test...so either I'll spend A block getting the answers and studying my ass off to take the test in B block (A will be a spare 'cause Perkins is downtown setting up for Jazz Fest, and B is already my spare), or I can just get the answers at lunch and take the test Wednesday morning...which is a lot more appealing of an idea because I want to make sure I'm ready for the test...I think that's what I'll do...'Cause I just couldn't concentrate on studying tonight. I just couldn't.
God I have so many things running through my mind at once, I'm stressed out, I'm fucken depressed, and my mom just won't leave it alone...Like I get that she cares and she wants to know what's going on, but frankly, it's none of her business and I don't feel like talking to her about stuff. I just DON'T. And it gets on my nerves when people constantly ask me what's wrong, RIGHT after I say LEAVE IT ALONE. UGH. I just have too much to process right now.
With Jazzfest coming up this week, I'm just like AHHH because it's like rushrushrush to get everything done before Thursday & Friday.
UGHNESS.
I hate everything right now. Fuck. Why does Jamie have to leave? :'(
I will burn all this,
I will burn all this,
I will burn all this...
I'm freaking out...I'm stressed because I have to take my stupid Chem test still, I'm missing math review tomorrow because I have to go to the surgeon again to see my why my freakin' ankle is cracking and clicking when I walk...I'm stressed about that, because I have to take my math test...so either I'll spend A block getting the answers and studying my ass off to take the test in B block (A will be a spare 'cause Perkins is downtown setting up for Jazz Fest, and B is already my spare), or I can just get the answers at lunch and take the test Wednesday morning...which is a lot more appealing of an idea because I want to make sure I'm ready for the test...I think that's what I'll do...'Cause I just couldn't concentrate on studying tonight. I just couldn't.
God I have so many things running through my mind at once, I'm stressed out, I'm fucken depressed, and my mom just won't leave it alone...Like I get that she cares and she wants to know what's going on, but frankly, it's none of her business and I don't feel like talking to her about stuff. I just DON'T. And it gets on my nerves when people constantly ask me what's wrong, RIGHT after I say LEAVE IT ALONE. UGH. I just have too much to process right now.
With Jazzfest coming up this week, I'm just like AHHH because it's like rushrushrush to get everything done before Thursday & Friday.
UGHNESS.
I hate everything right now. Fuck. Why does Jamie have to leave? :'(
I will burn all this,
I will burn all this,
I will burn all this...