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What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am...
Ahhh so I'm really bored. I haven't really updated in a long time...Well, other than my little rant from a few days back.
I really miss Colin. A lot. Actually, a strangely pathetic amount. I can't get over it, and it's driving me insane. He was like the greatest guy ever, and still I somehow managed to fuck it up. Guess I'm just that incredibly talented.
I never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me
That I keep locked inside of me so deep...
Even though we never dated, it still seems like a bad break-up...Well, he did ask me out, and I said yes, but then he never talked to me again, so I guess it wasn't really official. In the blink of an eye, he went from saying he loves me and that he'd move up here to be with me and go to school to just never speaking to me again. *Sigh* I just wish that he would email me back, or call me, or text msg me, or SOMETHING. I miss him so much. But on the other hand, I guess I should thank him - he made me realize the best thing to do is give up on guys altogether. At least for right now.
I'm even losing respect for Jamie...Ever since he stood me up that day, it's just not been the same...I guess that's what it took for me to realize that he's just another guy who doesn't call when he says he will, and that it's pointless for me to constantly chase after him when he doesn't want me. Well, I'm chopping down his pedastol. Don't get me wrong, I still love the guy with all my heart, but I'm so SICK and TIRED of bending over backwards for him when he doesn't appreciate it and doesn't do anything in return. All I get out of it is stress & heartache. So for now, I'm DONE with guys. If they want me that bad, they can come to me, but until then, I quit. I give up. Nothing I seem to do is good enough, so I'm gonna just stop trying.
I just really wish Colin would come back...
-Mrs. Jensen-
Is I'm sorry for the way I am...
Ahhh so I'm really bored. I haven't really updated in a long time...Well, other than my little rant from a few days back.
I really miss Colin. A lot. Actually, a strangely pathetic amount. I can't get over it, and it's driving me insane. He was like the greatest guy ever, and still I somehow managed to fuck it up. Guess I'm just that incredibly talented.
I never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me
That I keep locked inside of me so deep...
Even though we never dated, it still seems like a bad break-up...Well, he did ask me out, and I said yes, but then he never talked to me again, so I guess it wasn't really official. In the blink of an eye, he went from saying he loves me and that he'd move up here to be with me and go to school to just never speaking to me again. *Sigh* I just wish that he would email me back, or call me, or text msg me, or SOMETHING. I miss him so much. But on the other hand, I guess I should thank him - he made me realize the best thing to do is give up on guys altogether. At least for right now.
I'm even losing respect for Jamie...Ever since he stood me up that day, it's just not been the same...I guess that's what it took for me to realize that he's just another guy who doesn't call when he says he will, and that it's pointless for me to constantly chase after him when he doesn't want me. Well, I'm chopping down his pedastol. Don't get me wrong, I still love the guy with all my heart, but I'm so SICK and TIRED of bending over backwards for him when he doesn't appreciate it and doesn't do anything in return. All I get out of it is stress & heartache. So for now, I'm DONE with guys. If they want me that bad, they can come to me, but until then, I quit. I give up. Nothing I seem to do is good enough, so I'm gonna just stop trying.
I just really wish Colin would come back...
-Mrs. Jensen-