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So far, this week could not possibly be any more depressing. Monday, after being stoked beyond belief for Jamie to come over, he stood me up. He didn't even so much as pick up the phone all day to tell me he wasn't coming. Nope, instead, I wasted my whole day that I could've used for doing homework just waiting for him to call or come over, and hoping he would do both. That was nice...yeah. Then Tuesday, I got all excited to go to my appointment, because I thought for sure Dr. Boyce would tell me I could start walking again. Nope, wrong again. Instead, he told me I have another two weeks before I can put full weight on it and walk. So, I have to go back on February 7th and have my cast changed, and THEN I'm supposedly going to be able to walk on it.
So my week has officially ROCKED so far. On the somewhat bright side, Colin asked me out the other night O.O...I don't really know what to say...I mean he moved to fricken TEXAS. He's so far away...I really wanna say yes 'cause I like him a lot, but then I keep thinking how it wouldn't be fair to him, because I can't just shake the feelings I have for Jamie. And, ok, so there's about a .025% chance of anything happening with Jamie right now, but I still have feelings for him. I still fucking LOVE that boy, and that's what makes it unfair to Colin. And I know I'm mad at Jamie for not even calling me and everything, but it doesn't change how I feel about him...So what do I do? Do I say yes to Colin and try to do the long-distance thing, even though I feel strongly for Jamie? Or do I reject Colin because I have feelings for Jamie, even though I can't have him?
I don't knooow. I wish somebody could just make the decision for me, and get it over with already. Fuck.
Anyway, I'm off to go contemplate shit. Adios.
-Mrs...ah fuck it, ME-