Mmm....

Oct 17, 2004 16:00

My life has been so crazy. I have been buisy with school, football training, working, homework, college apps., and me going to the hospital all the time. I just want a day where none of that applies. A day where i can hang with my friends the way they  used to be. The old friends, the ones i miss so dearly. Amie has rick, work, and school; Codi works; Jennifer and i are not friends anymore; and everyone has them self. My life has changed so drastically. Jessica has her life to worry about; carrie has her boyfriend, work, and school too. It just seems like my senior year is flyin' bye with me not knowing it at all. sad days. Family life has been hecktic. oh man has it been. Geeze! Let that go... Sabrina has been their for me like no other i give her my everything. She knows it all. More then anyone else any more. We always confide in eachother for anything, even stupid things, lol, but that is what friends are for! i love her. She really is a friend and i am glad that i have her by my side, on those days i have a blast and smile all day it is because of her smile and words of kindness and stupidity that get me through it. When i go back to the hosptial i know that she will be the one to see me the most maybe the only one it seem's that will find time...To sabrina i love ya hun! For those of you that do not know why i am going to the hospital it is cause i had cancer last october and have had problems ever since. I am having serious problems again and my new doctor is concerned for my life and wants to run some tests on me to make sure that things will be ok once i will be released again or if she should keep me for a few weeks and monitor my movements and daily life. Hoping things will be ok i get through every day with a struggle in pain. Not wanting to say anything to anyone in fear they will look down upon me as something more weak then them. I may be physically but i do struggle to stay strong and will remain that way!  
Previous post Next post
Up
[]