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[amanda311]

This girl I work with told me that when I'm upset that it's written all over face. Good. I'm just so over dramatic. I've been feeling really good the past month, or pretending. It's funny how everything happens at once. Last night was probably one of the most emotional nights. Of course every feeling has just poured over into today. Life would be much easier if you could just write people off. But I have such a hard time doing that. Especially now. I mean, one relationship I was in has been over for almost two years and the longest I've been without speaking to him has been 2 months. Still going strong. It's so hard to get rid of someone that you care about, but it was really only hurting me. Especially when I realized that I was the only one that was still caring. This is so different. I know I have power in this situation, I just don't know if I have the courage and confidence to use it. And the longer I wait, well, yeah. I don't know if what I'm missing is what I want. I'm decisive. Really. And then I have pressure, kind people, and laughs... but it's not there either. I just need closure on a number of things. Long awaited closure... maybe then I'll open some doors.

In work news, things are going well. I'm expecting a promotion in the next year, so I'm pretty excited. Yes, I am going to work there for the rest of my life.

Krystal is leaving for Las Vegas tomorrow. We are having a farewell lunch. It's going to be weird... I don't see her too much now, we both have crazy schedules, but still. I'm sure I'm going to be sitting on the couch watching movies and sleeping for the next week. I'm back into that funk when I don't want to socialize. It's too much work. I'm sick of routine. I never complain.

2 things that put a smile on my face? Smackin Isaiah(3 days) and the Red Sox(5 days).