To be continued....
It's late and I need sleep so I will wait to post the whole thing tomorrow. But I have made at least one realization and on one hand I hate it, and on the other, I think its something that is good for me. I like Greg, he is a great guy, in general. I like talking to him and have fun talking to him and he makes me smile, in general. We have talked for god knows how many hours in the last two weeks so we have talked about a lot of things and seen some of the sides of each other. The past few days has been hard though. I look forward to talking to him because I am used to it being something good but the last few days I have been hesitant on it. I still want to talk to him I just want to know what mood he is in before hand. He successfully makes me cry and makes me feel about as worthless as a slug and like a horrible hidious person. It isn't him saying things about me or making comments directly at me. And I know he could be saying things in general and not meaning them pointed at me, but they feel like they are and the way he says them makes them seem like they are. And for once, I don't think it is me being oversensative, maybe it is, but I don't think so, not really. So the thing I've realized, I've had enough people in my life make me feel this way, I don't need or want it from my freinds. I am hoping he is just in a funk and this will pass and is not how he normally is and he goes back to how he was, but if it doesn't, I really don't know if I can be a true freind with him. Which hurts and I don't like it because I want to be freinds with him.