reminder to self
Things I learnt this week, in shark hell:
1. I lose my temper, and then I do things I regret. This is possibly because I would prefer to cut myself off than be hurt by someone blowing their brains out again. Thanks, person.
Under that consideration, I am going to try two things:
a. When I get mad, I am not allowed to send any correspondence for at least a day.
b. If I do hit the send button, I am not going to immediately say to myself, "oh man, you fucked that up. Best to close up shop because you screwed that." Because apparently, people on the other side of the argument are smarter than you, and they don't think that way. So when you sever ties because you think that's what is best, you end up just hurting people more. I will sit on my hands, and nail them to the table if necessary.
c. I will learn to apologise if it comes to that, and hope for the best. Plan C is the least favorite plan. Plan A should be the best. People do it all the time. It's not rocket science.
2. So in that light, I said some harsh words this week, and I apologised to the people, and there's nothing I can do but wait. One of those people has decided that is not enough, and to that person, I cannot do more than say that I am sorry. To the other person who accepted my apology, I am sincere that I will try not to do it again, and I have made a game plan to approach that.
3. I need to try some Midol.
1. I lose my temper, and then I do things I regret. This is possibly because I would prefer to cut myself off than be hurt by someone blowing their brains out again. Thanks, person.
Under that consideration, I am going to try two things:
a. When I get mad, I am not allowed to send any correspondence for at least a day.
b. If I do hit the send button, I am not going to immediately say to myself, "oh man, you fucked that up. Best to close up shop because you screwed that." Because apparently, people on the other side of the argument are smarter than you, and they don't think that way. So when you sever ties because you think that's what is best, you end up just hurting people more. I will sit on my hands, and nail them to the table if necessary.
c. I will learn to apologise if it comes to that, and hope for the best. Plan C is the least favorite plan. Plan A should be the best. People do it all the time. It's not rocket science.
2. So in that light, I said some harsh words this week, and I apologised to the people, and there's nothing I can do but wait. One of those people has decided that is not enough, and to that person, I cannot do more than say that I am sorry. To the other person who accepted my apology, I am sincere that I will try not to do it again, and I have made a game plan to approach that.
3. I need to try some Midol.