Having a mental argument with yourself

[amancalledmikey]

Yes, my promises to blog before were empty. However, blogging to me is something I want to do when I feel I need to do it. My friend Iain, who once described my blog as the blog equivalent of the Joy Division, didn't seem to understand that I almost feel certain posts need to be written to somewhat openly discuss something with friends. People

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[dreamy_falls]

I've been going through a "what do I do with my life" stage at the moment. As in...I'm not working, I don't want to live in this town, I want our family to have more money, how important is money to us, how important is job satisfaction important, where do I want to be in ten years from now...blah blah...all that stuff...

I'm very indecisive so, it's hard for me to make a decision.

The last question though: "where do I want to be in ten years?" has probably helped me the most though. Since the biggest deal for me right now is that I don't want to be in this town and maybe not even this country - so, how long will it take to get out and how do I do it? We're considering Canada because I have relatives there, so our aim is to make ourselves as desirable as possible "skilled worker" wise in order to get more points on our application. Then, even if we don't end up moving there, in any case we'll hopefully find it easier to move to other places as a result and we have something to work towards.

I guess you really have to figure out what's MOST important, what you want and how you can get it - after that, the hardest thing is doing something about it. I'm finding that part hard myself! I hope you figure it out soon!

x

[amancalledmikey]

See, I know what I want to do but when I come home from work, I just can't muster the energy to do it. I'm not a workaholic, never have been. I envy my friend in a way. She set up her own PR company in her spare time so she'd get up at 7am, get ready for work and squeeze her morning emails in. She'd be home from work at 6.30 and work until midnight, maybe later. So she was doing two days of work - one for herself and one for her employer - every day. And she was working on the weekend. While it isn't fun, she now has her own business and works 9 to 5 and has been pretty successful with it.

[dreamy_falls]

Hi,

yes I think it definitely takes a certain type of person to do that - or else, a total change in attitude for someone who is not naturally that type of person. I realised recently that I am definitely not someone who would be able to work all hours of the day and night, even if I absolutely knew that by doing it that I would end up being successful...I'm just, (unless something drastic happens) not going to be that person. I need some time to relax! I need some time to myself and time to be with friends and time to be with my family. I want to enjoy my work, but I don't want work to be my entire life. I guess the only way I could ever possibly do something like that was if I loved what I was doing SO much that it didn't feel like a huge chore. But I don't think I've found that thing yet. :/