"From christmas to the Chinese new year.... well, not quite" - Part three: A little more personal
This was actually going to be the first post of the bunch but a week's perspective changed this post considerably.
DIET: I decided to go on a diet. On the 20th of January I was 15 1/2 stone, which is about 28lbs obese according to the BMI. I told my family and immediately my mum just suggests the same old shit. Mum’s wisdom consisted of "There's a book up there, the Walking diet!" and "Now I know you don't like bananas but banana sandwiches..." amongst other things. She's never read the Walking diet. It's a diet from the 80s that skews your calorie intake toward carbs with the idea you walk miles everyday and burn them off.
So I started with Ediets UK (aka TescoDiets). The American site was very highly-recommended but, at first, I was very down on the diet. There seemed to be a lot of preparation and buying from supermarkets every day seemed to be a necessity. However, their database is massive and you can change meals around, allowing me to tailor more to what we have in the house. I can't always eat as much as they tell me to either. For instance, I was given a recipe for Greek-style lemon chicken. The recipe was for four chicken thighs but I simply couldn't eat that much.
It's not a tough diet to follow, as it's about controlling portions. I can eat even hamburgers so long as they're lean and I don't go overboard. My sister cooks bolognaise sauce in pretty much the same fashion as the recipe they have online. Reading the recommended quantities, I'm eating around half the amount I was eating before. What I was eating before is half the portion I was eating six months ago so the level to which I was overeating is quite phenomenal. No drinking though. Cranberry juice is my new tipple and I was always able to dance sober, so I’m not missing it at all.
19 days thus far. I dropped 7lbs up to Thursday and I'm down a notch on my belt already. My first two targets are 13st 9lb by mid-April and 12 st 7 lb by mid-June. I see how I feel then to see if I go further but I should look quite svelte in comparison to how I look right now.
GIRLS: So, my two pre-Christmas dates:
* The date with Sarah was pleasant but she flaked out after christmas and stopped returning emails and texts.
* I snogged Sally's face off throughout a great date but that wasn't enough because she flaked out after christmas and stopped returning emails and texts.
Other internet girls:
* I chatted to Katrina via email but there wasn't enough there.
* I seemed to have to jump through hoops to hold Kate's attention but we stopped emailling over christmas and she stopped returning emails.
It's like christmas kills your momentum. I suppose, I'm no better. You're interested but because it doesn't feel like real life, you kind of don't treat it as such.
I have been chatting with a girl called Lara for a while and she has been in a bit of bad place for guys. She seemed sweet and in need of a friend, so I just tried to cheer her up. About three weeks ago, our relative girl and boy drama had died down and we started talking along the lines of meeting up. However, the internet is weird because it puts you at an advanced stage of intimacy before you have met somebody. She backed off and said she needed time to work her own head out. At first, I was fine with this, then became very not fine with it as I enjoy talking to her. Now, I'm fine with it again. Spoke to a few friends, worked my head out and I'm solid.
I've also been chatting to a girl called Sam. Due to misunderstandings and cancellations, we had a couple of false starts. She was very keen and so the Saturday before last, she invited me to go to Lloyd's Bar in Bromley with some work friends of hers. I couldn't find her, repeated texted her and called her once. I think it's rude to not check your phone in a period where you expect somebody to text or call when you're in a packed pub like Lloyd's. I texted her at 2 am and she said she didn't check her phone until after she left. We spoke, I said some things I instantly regretted but it seemed no damage done. I was angry to be messed around again is all. I saw new pics of her which, coupled with the near misses, made me decide against going with her romantically.
However, last Saturday, we had a long, protracted argument. It was fairly difficult and a bit emotional, as we lumbered from nastiness to nastiness. I like her, I think we could be friends but we both need to show a lot more consideration and understanding to each other. It just feels that throughout the brief period we've talked, I've let a hell of a lot go.
Aside from my rotten cold coming and going from my ears to my sinuses and now to my throat, I have become more positive as the week has gone by. Ray and my old mate Paul helped me quite a bit, though they probably don’t think they did much. Talking to somebody where they’re not trying to solve your problems often helps you solve your own.
I've decided to knock this internet dating malarkey on the head for a while, possibly forever.
DIET: I decided to go on a diet. On the 20th of January I was 15 1/2 stone, which is about 28lbs obese according to the BMI. I told my family and immediately my mum just suggests the same old shit. Mum’s wisdom consisted of "There's a book up there, the Walking diet!" and "Now I know you don't like bananas but banana sandwiches..." amongst other things. She's never read the Walking diet. It's a diet from the 80s that skews your calorie intake toward carbs with the idea you walk miles everyday and burn them off.
So I started with Ediets UK (aka TescoDiets). The American site was very highly-recommended but, at first, I was very down on the diet. There seemed to be a lot of preparation and buying from supermarkets every day seemed to be a necessity. However, their database is massive and you can change meals around, allowing me to tailor more to what we have in the house. I can't always eat as much as they tell me to either. For instance, I was given a recipe for Greek-style lemon chicken. The recipe was for four chicken thighs but I simply couldn't eat that much.
It's not a tough diet to follow, as it's about controlling portions. I can eat even hamburgers so long as they're lean and I don't go overboard. My sister cooks bolognaise sauce in pretty much the same fashion as the recipe they have online. Reading the recommended quantities, I'm eating around half the amount I was eating before. What I was eating before is half the portion I was eating six months ago so the level to which I was overeating is quite phenomenal. No drinking though. Cranberry juice is my new tipple and I was always able to dance sober, so I’m not missing it at all.
19 days thus far. I dropped 7lbs up to Thursday and I'm down a notch on my belt already. My first two targets are 13st 9lb by mid-April and 12 st 7 lb by mid-June. I see how I feel then to see if I go further but I should look quite svelte in comparison to how I look right now.
GIRLS: So, my two pre-Christmas dates:
* The date with Sarah was pleasant but she flaked out after christmas and stopped returning emails and texts.
* I snogged Sally's face off throughout a great date but that wasn't enough because she flaked out after christmas and stopped returning emails and texts.
Other internet girls:
* I chatted to Katrina via email but there wasn't enough there.
* I seemed to have to jump through hoops to hold Kate's attention but we stopped emailling over christmas and she stopped returning emails.
It's like christmas kills your momentum. I suppose, I'm no better. You're interested but because it doesn't feel like real life, you kind of don't treat it as such.
I have been chatting with a girl called Lara for a while and she has been in a bit of bad place for guys. She seemed sweet and in need of a friend, so I just tried to cheer her up. About three weeks ago, our relative girl and boy drama had died down and we started talking along the lines of meeting up. However, the internet is weird because it puts you at an advanced stage of intimacy before you have met somebody. She backed off and said she needed time to work her own head out. At first, I was fine with this, then became very not fine with it as I enjoy talking to her. Now, I'm fine with it again. Spoke to a few friends, worked my head out and I'm solid.
I've also been chatting to a girl called Sam. Due to misunderstandings and cancellations, we had a couple of false starts. She was very keen and so the Saturday before last, she invited me to go to Lloyd's Bar in Bromley with some work friends of hers. I couldn't find her, repeated texted her and called her once. I think it's rude to not check your phone in a period where you expect somebody to text or call when you're in a packed pub like Lloyd's. I texted her at 2 am and she said she didn't check her phone until after she left. We spoke, I said some things I instantly regretted but it seemed no damage done. I was angry to be messed around again is all. I saw new pics of her which, coupled with the near misses, made me decide against going with her romantically.
However, last Saturday, we had a long, protracted argument. It was fairly difficult and a bit emotional, as we lumbered from nastiness to nastiness. I like her, I think we could be friends but we both need to show a lot more consideration and understanding to each other. It just feels that throughout the brief period we've talked, I've let a hell of a lot go.
Aside from my rotten cold coming and going from my ears to my sinuses and now to my throat, I have become more positive as the week has gone by. Ray and my old mate Paul helped me quite a bit, though they probably don’t think they did much. Talking to somebody where they’re not trying to solve your problems often helps you solve your own.
I've decided to knock this internet dating malarkey on the head for a while, possibly forever.