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I created this son of a bitch for a reason--I guess I better use it, huh? LOL
I think that this will be my outlet for my dieting and for the stresses and internal battles that I am having with myself while playing 'Caretaker' for a dear friend who is battling Stage-3 Germ Cell Cancer.
It's weird. When I moved to California, I weighed waaaay more than I had ever dreamed of in my life (325#)--I still shudder at that number and kick my ass constantly for letting myself get that big. But in a matter of 9 months, I lost nearly 50 pounds. Now--I plan on losing 50 more. Now, I am in Indiana where body image isn't a huge factor as it is in San Diego.
I left for California to pursue my own life and to take care of myself--but life has a way of unveiling it's true intentions for you in the weirdest ways. I returned to Indiana to take care of B and be a hand for R so they both can focus on B's cancer and handle life as a couple as I take care of things behind-the-scenes around the house and whatever else I can do.
So--consider this my true first entry. It's an entry that will cement the first golden brick on towards living healthier, eating healthier and also a way for me to just air out what is going on inside my head.
It's a good day. :)
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