im pretty sure that im a nice girl....i think?!?!
(its my usual sermon/story thing again..sorry rebecca)
i went into krispy kreme today cause my sister wanted doughnuts. (shes pregnant.) and that girl, i think her name is maria...well, from what i remember, she was the cheerleader from hell like 2 years ago. literally...anyone remember? she was that girl who wore fishnets underneath her uniform and let other people wear her uniforms or whatever just because. i also remember a time where steph i think kristin too, and i were talking about her in the bathroom, and someone, im not gonna name who, was talking negatively about her or something, then you hear her in the stalls talking to one of her friends saying, " listen, its the snobby cheerleaders talking shit about me again.." she was also the one who was supposedly lesbian on the squad. well...yea she works there. i dont kno if she ever got to like me, i mean i was there during the bathroom incident. but there i was buying doughnuts from her, and i could tell that she remembered who i was...but i really hoped that it wasnt in a bad way. so whatever, she gave me my dozen and i paid. i tried to do a little small talk to ask how school was and i smiled to let her kno im not evil...or atleast not anymore. so we talked for a little, and shes actually going to mc cause i guess a lot of things/people made her life miserable in wootton so she just wanted out right away. and i respect that...i think its cool.
but i was just thinking...how much everyone hated/didnt like/stared at that girl cause she dressed differently...and how it drove her away from her own high school. she's missing out on football games, basketball games, junior banquet,prom..etc...all because people werent nice to her. im gonna admit, there were definitely times where i was a little fragile around people, and id get into little arguements, namely jon soffer (but 1/2 of it was in a joking manner) about how teasing and making fun of people can really affect a person. or about how people dont have enough morals. im also gonna admit that im also a culprit at times, when im really fired up, especially if its during a cheerleading event where i do talk negatively about people...but thats mainly because maybe somebody is talking negatively about the squad, my friends or me. dont get me wrong, i think that making jokes are also innocent...but when things are said and meant in a mean negative connotation, i think its cruel. almost even evil. to a point where teenagers have killed themselves because of the fact that they are sooo insecure but thats BECAUSE of people who just bring them down. the thing is, i didnt even kno that maria girl, and people just judged her. i dont recall if i ever made fun of her that bad, i kno i didnt agree with the fishnets....but im certain a lot of other people did. mainly girls. and i didnt say anything about it. im guilty of that. i guess my point is...even today, with the multiple nasty comments, the racial slurs, the stereotyped evil comments still affect individuals where people get depressed, where peopled drop out of school or where people even just commit suicide. what i dont understand tho is that it's so easy to stop that. for example, take a few of those wootton upper classmen senior girls who are on a sport, and then if some little underclassmen girl accidentally runs into them and they even say sorry, the monstorous senior girl turns her perfect head and sweeps her perfect hair, and puts in that extra strength in her eyes to give her a nasty "dont you ever touch me or look at me again look or youre going to regret it" look. any who knows, maybe that girl ran home crying. or just the opposite. got one her friends whos friends with the a step team girl to go beat the hell outta those senior "im too cool" girls. then theres a cycle. what i dont understand tho, is that its sooo easy to control that. its soooo easy to stop making people feel bad about themselves no matter how much you think they deserve it. so i guess this entire long lj just points to one cheesy universal question: why cant we all be friends? at least as far as high school/early college years is concerned. and the sad thing is, this message isnt going to get across anyones mind.
i felt a lot better being nice to someone who i didnt give a chance to become my friend at the time where they actually needed one.
shortened version for rebecca:
i was in deep thought today during a discussion class and it got me thinking. (big surprise eh?) anyways, high school shootings keep occuring, teenagers keep committing suicide, some teenagers are developing depressions during their high school years...etc, and its all because of people not being nice to one another. and my lj was about how i think its dumb that people, even some senior gisl that i witnessed at the pep rally and etc just in general, think that they live up to higher/better standards to their peers where they have to be mean to their peers to obtain some credibilty. so my lj was probably about how one day, they are going to do it sooo much that someone could possibly commit suicide because of them and they would have to live with that guilt for the rest of their lives. anyways i miss you.
oh and steven darling, if it wasnt for me and katie, you wouldnt even kno where swaynes locke is!! lol i love you regardless...ohh and i knew it was you who wrote the anonymous posting lol...I P numbers baby...
i went into krispy kreme today cause my sister wanted doughnuts. (shes pregnant.) and that girl, i think her name is maria...well, from what i remember, she was the cheerleader from hell like 2 years ago. literally...anyone remember? she was that girl who wore fishnets underneath her uniform and let other people wear her uniforms or whatever just because. i also remember a time where steph i think kristin too, and i were talking about her in the bathroom, and someone, im not gonna name who, was talking negatively about her or something, then you hear her in the stalls talking to one of her friends saying, " listen, its the snobby cheerleaders talking shit about me again.." she was also the one who was supposedly lesbian on the squad. well...yea she works there. i dont kno if she ever got to like me, i mean i was there during the bathroom incident. but there i was buying doughnuts from her, and i could tell that she remembered who i was...but i really hoped that it wasnt in a bad way. so whatever, she gave me my dozen and i paid. i tried to do a little small talk to ask how school was and i smiled to let her kno im not evil...or atleast not anymore. so we talked for a little, and shes actually going to mc cause i guess a lot of things/people made her life miserable in wootton so she just wanted out right away. and i respect that...i think its cool.
but i was just thinking...how much everyone hated/didnt like/stared at that girl cause she dressed differently...and how it drove her away from her own high school. she's missing out on football games, basketball games, junior banquet,prom..etc...all because people werent nice to her. im gonna admit, there were definitely times where i was a little fragile around people, and id get into little arguements, namely jon soffer (but 1/2 of it was in a joking manner) about how teasing and making fun of people can really affect a person. or about how people dont have enough morals. im also gonna admit that im also a culprit at times, when im really fired up, especially if its during a cheerleading event where i do talk negatively about people...but thats mainly because maybe somebody is talking negatively about the squad, my friends or me. dont get me wrong, i think that making jokes are also innocent...but when things are said and meant in a mean negative connotation, i think its cruel. almost even evil. to a point where teenagers have killed themselves because of the fact that they are sooo insecure but thats BECAUSE of people who just bring them down. the thing is, i didnt even kno that maria girl, and people just judged her. i dont recall if i ever made fun of her that bad, i kno i didnt agree with the fishnets....but im certain a lot of other people did. mainly girls. and i didnt say anything about it. im guilty of that. i guess my point is...even today, with the multiple nasty comments, the racial slurs, the stereotyped evil comments still affect individuals where people get depressed, where peopled drop out of school or where people even just commit suicide. what i dont understand tho is that it's so easy to stop that. for example, take a few of those wootton upper classmen senior girls who are on a sport, and then if some little underclassmen girl accidentally runs into them and they even say sorry, the monstorous senior girl turns her perfect head and sweeps her perfect hair, and puts in that extra strength in her eyes to give her a nasty "dont you ever touch me or look at me again look or youre going to regret it" look. any who knows, maybe that girl ran home crying. or just the opposite. got one her friends whos friends with the a step team girl to go beat the hell outta those senior "im too cool" girls. then theres a cycle. what i dont understand tho, is that its sooo easy to control that. its soooo easy to stop making people feel bad about themselves no matter how much you think they deserve it. so i guess this entire long lj just points to one cheesy universal question: why cant we all be friends? at least as far as high school/early college years is concerned. and the sad thing is, this message isnt going to get across anyones mind.
i felt a lot better being nice to someone who i didnt give a chance to become my friend at the time where they actually needed one.
shortened version for rebecca:
i was in deep thought today during a discussion class and it got me thinking. (big surprise eh?) anyways, high school shootings keep occuring, teenagers keep committing suicide, some teenagers are developing depressions during their high school years...etc, and its all because of people not being nice to one another. and my lj was about how i think its dumb that people, even some senior gisl that i witnessed at the pep rally and etc just in general, think that they live up to higher/better standards to their peers where they have to be mean to their peers to obtain some credibilty. so my lj was probably about how one day, they are going to do it sooo much that someone could possibly commit suicide because of them and they would have to live with that guilt for the rest of their lives. anyways i miss you.
oh and steven darling, if it wasnt for me and katie, you wouldnt even kno where swaynes locke is!! lol i love you regardless...ohh and i knew it was you who wrote the anonymous posting lol...I P numbers baby...