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i feel so... unhappy at this present moment, i can't even describe it. the rum aint helping much at all. anyway. i don't know why this night has such a bad effect on me... it was just babysitting for god's sake. but it was a terrible night. and my stomach hurt like i was going to throw up.
lovely.
so i'm sitting all by myself in my room... drinking this and listening to music. i should be studying. and i probably will in a few minutes. but i might clean my room first. and light all the candles possible in my room. and then... i will try to do homework. really try hard.
but i'll finish this drink first.
at least i have no one to talk to. (i suppose that's not entirely true, but i think it anyway, even though it's not true).
lovely.
so i'm sitting all by myself in my room... drinking this and listening to music. i should be studying. and i probably will in a few minutes. but i might clean my room first. and light all the candles possible in my room. and then... i will try to do homework. really try hard.
but i'll finish this drink first.
at least i have no one to talk to. (i suppose that's not entirely true, but i think it anyway, even though it's not true).