May 19, 2011 23:33
What if I am actually scared to leave everything I have ever known? What if I come back and decide that being here feels wrong?
I need to get to sleep before 11pm from now on. And also not have sweets, my mind is doing funny things.
All of a sudden I feel confused and uncertain in areas I was so sure about.
This is my bubble, it is safe in here.
On another note:
During pre-school lessons today we discussed how David is going into kindergarten next year and I almost started crying. It brings tears to my eyes since him and Gavin used to talk about going to school and about when they wont have to take naps.
It comes in brief waves, and it's mostly hard knowing this will never go away.
We all miss you Gavin. So very much.
overwhelmed,
changes,
scared,
travel,
bestie,
gavin o'bryant