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so right now im just hanging on for the ride- doin what i have to do to get through it all, which is a good thing but tiring. work is good and bad, but no regrets, not even waking up at 530 in the morning to get to work by 615.
yesterday a minor league baseball player from chicago came in with his team for breakfast and turned around and just stared at me. it wasnt busy and i wasnt interested in him even though he was extremly attractive- black hair blue eyes and buff in his baseball outfit. he walks over and starts telling me how beautiful i am and asks me to come watch his game. of course i say no way jose (his name was bobby), i had an appointment to go to. so he said so why not tomorrow i say no way jose i have a boyfriend, and of course he starts bragging about himself. anyways, then i get a phone call from the resteraunt, it was him- the baseball player asking me one more time if he could see me again. anyways it didnt make my day or anything, but it makes for a good story i figure. probably it was a story youd have to be there for.
chris got kicked out of his house again and now fired from his job. which stinks. it wasnt even a bad fight this time. i dont even understand, he is going to school and getting good grades, and BOOM kicked out of the house. but he doesnt even try to be nice or do anything nice for her, so i just have to stay out of it. which is really hard for me because i would do anything for that boy. too bad i picked a guy who doesnt want anything from anybody.
carly got super drunk tonight- went to a lobster fest with an open wine bar- her and dave. she cant drink wine anyways she gets sad. so i held her hair back while dave talked to chris outside. got seafood puke all over me, but i love my sister. i wish she didnt get so sad.
signing up for the breast christmas ever for 93.3. that would be crazy! i would love that so much!
got my letter finally from my psychologist so i can get my bright futures back, but i had to actually talk to him which kind of sucked because he didnt need to know everything. he just got all weird and wanted to talk about the stupid things that werent even bothering me- like what is going on in my life right now, when everything the bulk of my hardships happened in march.
dont really know why i am spilling my guts like i am. noone really knows me anyways, which is my own fault because i have so much to say i dont want to say anything.
does anyone ever notice that some people talk to themselves alot? i find it very weird. why would they say some things. i can hear them say it. it cant be in my head. im like why dont you say it out loud if you feel that way. you are just weird!
dont have any work tomorrow, my only day off. ill do some sewing and some saxophone playing and punch on the punching bag, write a couple essays that i have meaning to write. who knows. life is really crazy and often so meaningless but at the same time so meaningful. so much but so little.
yesterday a minor league baseball player from chicago came in with his team for breakfast and turned around and just stared at me. it wasnt busy and i wasnt interested in him even though he was extremly attractive- black hair blue eyes and buff in his baseball outfit. he walks over and starts telling me how beautiful i am and asks me to come watch his game. of course i say no way jose (his name was bobby), i had an appointment to go to. so he said so why not tomorrow i say no way jose i have a boyfriend, and of course he starts bragging about himself. anyways, then i get a phone call from the resteraunt, it was him- the baseball player asking me one more time if he could see me again. anyways it didnt make my day or anything, but it makes for a good story i figure. probably it was a story youd have to be there for.
chris got kicked out of his house again and now fired from his job. which stinks. it wasnt even a bad fight this time. i dont even understand, he is going to school and getting good grades, and BOOM kicked out of the house. but he doesnt even try to be nice or do anything nice for her, so i just have to stay out of it. which is really hard for me because i would do anything for that boy. too bad i picked a guy who doesnt want anything from anybody.
carly got super drunk tonight- went to a lobster fest with an open wine bar- her and dave. she cant drink wine anyways she gets sad. so i held her hair back while dave talked to chris outside. got seafood puke all over me, but i love my sister. i wish she didnt get so sad.
signing up for the breast christmas ever for 93.3. that would be crazy! i would love that so much!
got my letter finally from my psychologist so i can get my bright futures back, but i had to actually talk to him which kind of sucked because he didnt need to know everything. he just got all weird and wanted to talk about the stupid things that werent even bothering me- like what is going on in my life right now, when everything the bulk of my hardships happened in march.
dont really know why i am spilling my guts like i am. noone really knows me anyways, which is my own fault because i have so much to say i dont want to say anything.
does anyone ever notice that some people talk to themselves alot? i find it very weird. why would they say some things. i can hear them say it. it cant be in my head. im like why dont you say it out loud if you feel that way. you are just weird!
dont have any work tomorrow, my only day off. ill do some sewing and some saxophone playing and punch on the punching bag, write a couple essays that i have meaning to write. who knows. life is really crazy and often so meaningless but at the same time so meaningful. so much but so little.