it was heavy on my shoulder...
Things are getting better right now. At least I'd like to think so. Today and tomorrow are the busiest days ever but they are the last days of classes which makes me real happy, not mention only 3 finals and then i am going to the beach with some great friends while my dad repaints my car. I am still scared to drive at night, i think im slowly getting over it. I've driven home from work and school a few times after dark, but i still get scared. I called out of work the other night just because it was dark and raining really hard and i freaked out. I'm sure i'll get over it eventually, but i am definitely more cautious now. I had a great weekend this past one, because Ashley came home!! After the worst three months of my life (both car wrecks, failing classes, uncle being diagnosed with cancer, and general awful nights out, etc etc) it was amazing to just get to spend a day with my best friend and act like the old days. We spent too much money, sang a little too loudly to our songs, and just really didn't care about anything but having fun. I needed that. My friends have been way too great to me lately and i wonder if they know how much i appreciate them. Everytime i hang out with everyone i keep thinking, i'm leaving this department in 7 months and that makes me extremely sad. But i know i will keep touch with most of these people for a really long time, because i truly want to. On another note, i'm just a teeny bit freaked out. Last year during the tempest I was getting awful headaches and had 2 giant knots on the back of my head that hurt, i went to the doctor and she said it was swollen lymph nodes caused by stress and gave me meds to make them go down. The meds worked but she told me if it came back, i would need to get it checked out. I recently found a giant knot on the back of my head that hurts really bad and is giving me headaches and making me dizzy, not a lot but every once in a while i get that black out- tunnel thing going on and its kind of freaky. My parents are insisting that I get an MRI and the way my luck has been, i don't want to. I'm sure its nothing but my parents are being very demanding that i get it looked at. Soooo wish me luck,prayers whatever. Mom's calling to make the appointment today. Anyway time to study and all that mess.