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okay. so about 2 and a half weeks ago, a boy messaged me on myspace. turns out, he lives on pleasant valley and he is friends with a boy i used to be friends with. we hate eachother now. but this boy, -- brandon, asked me if i was hungry one night and i told him yes. so he asked if i wanted to go with him to get food. we went to taco bell and then we went and ate in a park. it was cute because he was scared and kept looking over his shoulder. aw. so then. we stopped at a gas station and i had to call my grandma because it was like 1 in the morning. she said it was okay if i stayed out and all that so when i got off the phone with her, we were sitting in front of his house. and he asked if i wanted to go in.
so i said sure. we went inside and we went up to his room. we watched part of fight club and we kept kidding around with eachother and he told me he was going to bite my face off. so i told him to do it. the first time, he actually bit me.gay gay. then he said he was going to bite my face off again so i put my face up to his mouth and he bit me lightly.
and then started kissing. wooooow. he just makes my heart pound. he's soooo mean but thats part of his appeal. if he was nice, i probably wouldn't like him. so we made out and then we just layed there for like 4 hours! we didn't do anything. we just layed in his bed. it was nice. we had fun not doing anything. there was music on, thats it. no tv. no kissing. no talking. i've never done that with a boy but it was nice to know that he was willing to do that instead of having to be all over me the entire time even though i was in his bed! i love that.
we've hung out twice since then. day before last, he called me at 3 in the morning and wanted me to come outside to show me something. so i put on clothes and whined about it for about 20 minutes before he actually convinced me to come out. so when i did... i said "what?" and he goes "what do you mean what?" and i asked him what he wanted to show me. he said 'nothing, i just wanted you to come out here." so i rolled my eyes and started to talk back to the house and he goes "hold on," so i stopped and turned around and he opened his door. his car door went UP. ON A CAVALIER. ha. it was cool, though. so i just smiled. he smiled and we talked for a little bit. and then i go "i'm tired" and he goes "fine, go back inside then" so i just sighed because of his attitude, haha, and started to walk inside and he started to get back in his car. well, then he goes "wait, are you serious?" and i just looked and shrugged at him. so he sat in his car for a minute and just sighed and shook his head. so i walked over to him and he told me i was incredibly rude! i told him to stop being like that and then i got to sit in his car. his car is nice, even though its a cavalier. i like it. so then he told me he was gonna go pass out at his house and he knew i wanted to go to bed too. we didn't hug or anything. we just said bye. i could feel him staring at me as i walked away thought. BUT i didnt look back. i just kept walking. i wanted to hug him so bad and just fall into his arms.
ugh. done.