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[amadeus_amadeus]

mememe
sleep every other day
every 35 hour red eyes, face looks like puffins, feel like 100% grime, cant think properly. paranoid ideas about evreythgin.
i feel like there's a phantom string hanging around my neck
what is it time to do? seriously? so many useless feelings and just a self perpetuating cycle of lethargy i thought could stay on hiatus a

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[sasch_ul]

not zo much alone on anything ... i like it when other people gripe about shith because i feel less foolish when its my turn. ive just been so bizzy and confused to say anything, i hate that, im so relieved to be starting my first day off in a while right now, also i have tomorrow off too, which i haven't had 2 consecutive days off in a week and a half so i know things will get better at that. the last 3 days here have been overcast and raining. i love that you said u feel like youu have a phantom string around your neck! it sounds exactly right. ********** I dont think i mind the rain but maybe its a collective thing sometimes, it gets into you , i luvvv willhelm reich, i think being that he's from england --had an understanding of the cloud weather... do you know about the cloudbuster? i cant figure out how to explain it... hopefully you know already, i guess i think its a cute idea , if i ever make it to burning man one day, i think it would be cool to build a cloudbuster. have you ever been?
i hope you get good sleep soon!
im sure you'll be passhht soon...
i like this coded spreadsheet, did you make it?
xoxo

[amadeus_amadeus]

o i wish it would rain a little more often as of late. we had a solid month and 1/2 of rain over spring which got to be sort of painful but i can feel the weather patterns getting more extreme compared to like,10+ years ago.. this last week, 100 degrees and 80% humidity every day which is equally debilitating as never ending michigan winter. it feels like spring and fall barely exist and those are the most important to my mindset and probably for everyone else,,,,,,,,, i know i'm not alone in this misery boat
i think every person i'm close to has the problem of being over worked, which is the opposite of my predicament but when it comes down to it , it's a similar misery. where i have all this time to do what i want it's hard to stay on track with it with no schedule and a useless feeling, no money to go to the things i want like supplies and such, while other people havve it the other way around. either way there is a total lack of balance when it comes to free time and work, or time to clear out your head and prioritize, or socialize. it doesn't seem like many people have their scales in order right now, because there isn't a lot of options between poverty and devoting your life to a mediocre job. idunno.
i don't know about the cloudbuster but you can tell me about it? i'm about to start reading the satanic bible for the first time and i think it might be the self help book for me. i haven't been to burning man but i know a group that goes and i might like to someday ,.,.,.,.
and when you make livejournal updates in rich text there is an option for making grids, you can chart your gripes or make a chart inside a chart, i think that's new because i haven't seen it before. maybe the business professionals are using livejournal now.