cape cod
so the cape was dec. def not as fun as last year but we met lots of ppl. i met this boy chris who is seriously the nicest kid i've ever met. he showed me how to go over the bridge n get to 495 cuz i was scared i would get lost since i was drivin bak by myself. then he was like it sux u dont live here you're the only girl i've really liked in a while. lol thats sad, i knew him for like 5 days. n e ways the weather was good for the first few days then it was soo cold n rainy so there was basically nothing to do. the mall got boring after a couple times. so it wasnt the best vacation but it got me out of leominster n thats wat i really needed. im sick of this fuckin drama.
last nite was interesting. me jen and chels hung out with steph n brianna. seriously its so hard for us to deal with nick that we cant even imagine how brianna feels. i thought it would get easier as time went on but i've learned it just gets worse. i'll be driving around by myself and just look at his picture and start bawling and i dont kno if i'll ever get over this. last nite brianna told me that nick told her how much he cared about me and how i was different from everyone else. he said i was the one for him..that fuckin broke my heart. i dont understand why he never told me that. i just wish things could be different n i wish i could just talk to him one last nite. i want us to hang out with brianna more because shes awesome and she makes us feel better about everything. i want us to be like a big sister to her and i want her to feel like she can talk to us about everything.
i was soo mad, i took alotta pictures at the cape and then my first nite bak in leominster n they were soo funny but none of them came out. ughh. its okay i took a bunch last nite and those better come out. i think im gonna sleep all day today because i literally have not slept in 2 days. im surprised im awake rite now.
last nite was interesting. me jen and chels hung out with steph n brianna. seriously its so hard for us to deal with nick that we cant even imagine how brianna feels. i thought it would get easier as time went on but i've learned it just gets worse. i'll be driving around by myself and just look at his picture and start bawling and i dont kno if i'll ever get over this. last nite brianna told me that nick told her how much he cared about me and how i was different from everyone else. he said i was the one for him..that fuckin broke my heart. i dont understand why he never told me that. i just wish things could be different n i wish i could just talk to him one last nite. i want us to hang out with brianna more because shes awesome and she makes us feel better about everything. i want us to be like a big sister to her and i want her to feel like she can talk to us about everything.
i was soo mad, i took alotta pictures at the cape and then my first nite bak in leominster n they were soo funny but none of them came out. ughh. its okay i took a bunch last nite and those better come out. i think im gonna sleep all day today because i literally have not slept in 2 days. im surprised im awake rite now.