its all over..
This weekend was the hardest weekend I've ever had to go thru. Yesterday was Nick's wake. We got there a lil before 2 and stayed until like 5:30. It was so devastating seeing him. Me n nidz gave him a kiss on his head rite before we were leaving. it was soo hard to go up there n see him. Everytime i think about it, my heart just breaks. I just can't even believe it. There were so many people there. So many people cared about him! didn't he know he was gonna cause all of us this much pain? After the wake we went out to eat at Applebees for Nick. It just wasn't the same. Then we went to convince nidia's mom to let her sleep over, and surprisingly she said yes! nidias first sleepover! jenna chels and ashley slept over 2 and brad greg n jon came over for a while. We all just needed to be together to keep us from thinkin about this. I dont know if i would be able to handle this if I didnt have my friends to talk to..
i found some news out tonite..broke my heart completely. I just cant even believe it..i just dont understand why he didnt get help..
we thought we could be strong at the funeral today, but that didnt happen.
I really can't believe he's gone. i can't believe that he would really want something like this. Everyone cared so much about him and he had alot goin for him. I miss him so much, its unbelievable. I really wish i could go bak in time. It's hard to lose a family member, but everyone i've lost before has been old and its been suspected. This time, it was a compeltely unexpected and he was just soo young. i dont get it, i really just dont get it.
whyy?
I don't kno wat to do. I have so many projects n so much homework to do, but i cant. nick is the only thing on my mind rite now and i can't focas on school work. I want him bak. I just want him bak..why is life so unfair? why does god make it so difficult for everyone sometimes?
I cant believe it, i just can't believe it. I hope you know how much I cared about you Nick. I would do ANYTHING to have you bak. i love you sweetie..Rest in Peace..<33
You're forever in my heart and always on my mind..
i found some news out tonite..broke my heart completely. I just cant even believe it..i just dont understand why he didnt get help..
we thought we could be strong at the funeral today, but that didnt happen.
I really can't believe he's gone. i can't believe that he would really want something like this. Everyone cared so much about him and he had alot goin for him. I miss him so much, its unbelievable. I really wish i could go bak in time. It's hard to lose a family member, but everyone i've lost before has been old and its been suspected. This time, it was a compeltely unexpected and he was just soo young. i dont get it, i really just dont get it.
whyy?
I don't kno wat to do. I have so many projects n so much homework to do, but i cant. nick is the only thing on my mind rite now and i can't focas on school work. I want him bak. I just want him bak..why is life so unfair? why does god make it so difficult for everyone sometimes?
I cant believe it, i just can't believe it. I hope you know how much I cared about you Nick. I would do ANYTHING to have you bak. i love you sweetie..Rest in Peace..<33
You're forever in my heart and always on my mind..