MY GOALS N STUFF...
I WANT MY BODY BACK. BEFORE KIDS. I AM 5'4''. CWT. 145LBS. HWT. 195LBS WITH MY LAST CHILD. LOWEST WT. 105 LBS BEFORE CHILDREN. I AM ANA. IT STARTED WHEN I WAS PROBABLY ABOUT 15. I HAVE BEEN HOSPITALIZED AND OFFICIALLY DIAGNOSED. IT HAS BEEN AWHILE SINCE I EVEN FELT WORTHY OF ASSOCIATING MY DISEASES OF THE PAST WITH MY CURRENT GROTESQUE WT. IT HAS BEEN CREEPING UP THE PAST COUPLE OF YEARS...I HAVE MADE PEACE WITH THE FACT THAT YES I AM FAT NOW, BUT NOT FOR LONG. I LIKE TO TELL MYSELF THAT I WILL STOP. I WILL CROSS THAT BRIDGE WHENEVER IT COMES. I LIKE TO TELL MYSELF THAT IT WILL NOT GET OUT OF CONTROL. I LIKE TO TELL MYSELF THAT THIS IS THE ONLY WAY. I HAVE TRIED THE HEALTHY WAY TO NO AVAIL. THIS IS THE ONLY WAY FOR ME AND I KNOW I CAN DO IT. MAY THE POWERS THAT BE LET ME SUCCEED IN THE GOALS I HAVE SET FOR MYSELF. I AM SO GLAD I HAVE FOUND THIS PLACE TO VENT AND HELP AND ENCOURAGE AND EMPATHIZE...THANK YOU FOR THIS PLACE. PEOPLE CAN BE WHO THEY ARE AND THOSE WHO DON'T REALLY KNOW WHO THEY ARE CAN FIND OUT. THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!