a list of demands (kind of)
since kristin encouraged me to post yesterday, i feel like posting again. i am feeling very emotional right now, and hormones are flying. like seriously, don't into this room right now. you might get hit with some estrogen in the eye.
i was feeling somewhat upset when i got home, and i think i did the girliest, goofiest thing ever. i put on a jewel cd and cried. after my rant about talking like you're in a Lifetime film, i think i just acted out a scene in one. what a big corny hypocrite i am.
since i am feeling bad, here is a serious list of things that frustrate me:
-when people act apathetic
-insecurity, especially in my relationship
-insecurity in how other people perceive me
-i recently realized that i get very aggressive when i'm pissed off (or while playing sports) (or when i'm pissed off while playing sports... or even pissed off playing fake sports like badminton or frisbee)
-i wish my family made more money
-i get sad or mad and play out these weird sort of... scenes in my head. like i'll imagine i'm arguing with someone and i think of the cleverest, most biting remark i could make. like i have these sort of "bitch fantasies." i wonder if other people do this, or if i'm just nuts
-i am insecure about my house. like when having people over, i am very aware of the fact that i have pets and my dad smokes. i don't want people to think i'm like... dirty or a redneck or something.
-sometimes i wish that i had like a best friend who i could tell everything to. not like... how most people have best friends, or like the ones that girls have who have drama and stuff even though they are close. like... really what i want is to talk to someone like sasha because she knows me really well but is detached enough from my regular life that i can actually be honest about stuff without involving her or something. oh well.
....
on a different note:
one of the funniest phrases i have heard recently is "out the wazoo." like... in context, "i had to get my car towed, and now i'm paying fines out the wazoo." people should say this more and find new and interesting ways to use it.
so9428: the army recruiters just stopped calling me
so9428: they are nice but alittle too persistent
ricekrisPtreat: hah
ricekrisPtreat: like a middle school boy trying to date you
so9428: lol
so9428: or me
...i thought that was funny
i was feeling somewhat upset when i got home, and i think i did the girliest, goofiest thing ever. i put on a jewel cd and cried. after my rant about talking like you're in a Lifetime film, i think i just acted out a scene in one. what a big corny hypocrite i am.
since i am feeling bad, here is a serious list of things that frustrate me:
-when people act apathetic
-insecurity, especially in my relationship
-insecurity in how other people perceive me
-i recently realized that i get very aggressive when i'm pissed off (or while playing sports) (or when i'm pissed off while playing sports... or even pissed off playing fake sports like badminton or frisbee)
-i wish my family made more money
-i get sad or mad and play out these weird sort of... scenes in my head. like i'll imagine i'm arguing with someone and i think of the cleverest, most biting remark i could make. like i have these sort of "bitch fantasies." i wonder if other people do this, or if i'm just nuts
-i am insecure about my house. like when having people over, i am very aware of the fact that i have pets and my dad smokes. i don't want people to think i'm like... dirty or a redneck or something.
-sometimes i wish that i had like a best friend who i could tell everything to. not like... how most people have best friends, or like the ones that girls have who have drama and stuff even though they are close. like... really what i want is to talk to someone like sasha because she knows me really well but is detached enough from my regular life that i can actually be honest about stuff without involving her or something. oh well.
....
on a different note:
one of the funniest phrases i have heard recently is "out the wazoo." like... in context, "i had to get my car towed, and now i'm paying fines out the wazoo." people should say this more and find new and interesting ways to use it.
so9428: the army recruiters just stopped calling me
so9428: they are nice but alittle too persistent
ricekrisPtreat: hah
ricekrisPtreat: like a middle school boy trying to date you
so9428: lol
so9428: or me
...i thought that was funny